#motherhood

every day really is perfect. the memories I so desperately cling to are shrouded in mist and gold when I think back on them, never noticing the aura of beauty encapsulating my present moments. the ones that will eventually become memories. everything feels so profound when looking back, you know....

My son turns one this month. He's my only child so far, and it's been a very stressful one year with him. When he was born in 2020, I was a very different person. I had zero patience, a poor diet, terrible money management skills, and no serious future goals. It's been such a challenge…

"I have extra bandages in my purse." These are the words that escape my mouth when I'm asked how I am. It's a well-meaning question, but I don't even know how to explain the mental space I occupy lately, even to well-meaning people. I'm restless, hypervigilant, and increasingly exhausted. The lev...

Got an email that this site was back and had to re-read my old entries..... it’s just so much. Each entry brings all those emotions back, plus seeing them now with the knowledge I have now, it’s hard. You always hear people say “It seems important now, but give it time”, or “You’ll understand whe...