I am lost. I am following trails in life, that I can't remember if I or my overthinking laid. It feels like I am being enveloped in this never ending, cruel, and grueling cycle. This cycle is built around my unhealthy desire to be perfect. Even though I know, being perfect is not possible, still&...

I slept from midnight to 7am. I had a dream that I was getting a pedicure and manicure with my mom and a rapper named Blueface. I don’t know this rapper personally, or have any knowledge of his music or even think he’s attractive. But there he was, in my dreams. All I remember is…

I keep meeting god when I dance, specifically at an ecstatic dance. Dropping down into the earth, into my body, I intend to move and that mere intention sends a surge of bottled emotion shooting up my spine. I cry, or I don't. I feel intense waves of gratitude for this space, these souls, these&h...

I meditated for an hour this morning. The peace, the ease. I focused on manifesting health in my body where it needs it the most. I found myself grateful for warm blankets and sweaters, feeling my feet on the floor. A veritable master of mindfulness. I sat so high atop my perfect zen mountain. An...

These last 4 months have been extremely tough on my heart and mental state. I have been suffering from cognitive dissonance. To those of you who don't know what cognitive dissonance means, it is basically having two thoughts that contradict each other and makes it difficult for you to come to a c...

Personal Log 0940.132023 Before I get started I noticed that this site is free for like thirty days and then you have to pay to keep using. Im sorry I am not playing a penny for your thoughts where I have to pay to write. If anything it should be the other way around. Any…

Love is unconditional all that's all that needs to be said, the rest is unnecessary overcomplication. If someone does not understand what unconditional means, then it's not the right moment to discuss this with them or to even try to explain on behalf of their experience and own path. What I'm tr...

We were born to carry out our life mission. There is an aspect of it that will open our eyes towards new meanings that we've missed. There is an aspect that helps us grow up as a spirit, based on how we react and handle situations. There is an aspect where we serve the global…

Have you ever been in a situation, where everything feels so damn right that you start fearing there is something hidden that will soon ruin the happy moment? I only know that this is somewhat valid. I don't know where is the fine line between being paranoid and protecting yourself from disappoin...

We do wear crowns all the time. These are the crowns of our divine virtues and Gifts of abundance from God, our Father, the Sabaoth. The more we are grateful and productive, the more diligently we follow our life mission, the more merrily our crown shines with our adamantine jewels, filled incess...