
I Never Knew Life Could be so brutal
I ask myself everyday Ok Ashley THIS is the day Face your fears, pain and FIGHT back I tell myself it will be ok Every. Single. Day I tell myself this. Do I though? No You see I died a long time ago. I was murdered by pain and nobody heard my cries. I could…
Mother and Daughter
Mother and Daughter I wake to hear you crying, calling out to me. I wearily open my eyes, it’s only half past 3. I sigh, roll over, cover my ears, trying to ignore. But your persistent need for me, just grows more and more. Eventually I go to you, and see you’ve wet the bed.…
Deep
You can’t avoid it, it’s all over the news. Every clip and video, millions of views. Varying opinions, not all of them healthy. Is all this attention because they were so wealthy? Some people say it serves them right, others post a meme. These situations aren’t as simple as they seem. Just becaus...
Anchors & Paradox
And so it came to me last night, between the slow cadenced breathes of my daughter’s reluctant sleep… Beneath the warmth of blankets, staying off February’s brief wrath and ponderous thoughts of a mortgage… And debt and an entitled cat -grooming himself unabashedly… Fingerprints of equanimity mat...
By My Own Accord
I'm searching for new adventure; in a realm I've never experienced before. I'm asking for new life. I'm asking for new emotion and train of thought. What have I done here so far? I've reverted, I've distorted my own voice. I've been subject of my own accord. I allowed it, I received it, I have&he...
When I Wake
When I Wake When I wake early morning, and say farewell to the night I put scraps of dream to music, to see if they'll take flight The loved, lost, the lusted after, to parties whom I owe I confess my debts to the void, when I'm heavy like wet snow Enemies,…
A Tall Jenga Tower Precariously Leaning To One Side
Routine is my only friend My therapist and my medicine They’ve never hurt me before So I think I’ll stick with them Ritual never seems to bore Schedule never changes on a whim My friend with many names They’re always so tame They keep me sane Why have more friends When bring so much pain?
Boo Hoo
They won’t be quiet They’re bottomless pits They keep throwing fits Like children Stupid little shits Using their problems as excuses They aren’t even hurting So fucking useless Liabilities They’re hungry for pity They starve for attention They don’t even feel guilty Let them drown in the river T...
Those Who Anger Me
Gluttonous for attention They make fools of themselves Lacking comprehension They boast their hardships They make it competition Who has it worse? Why must they be so persistent To undermine others trauma? Vultures of pity They refuse to be happy Sycophants to melancholy They don’t want to be fre...
Self Sabotage
What does it mean when you've squandered every opportunity for happiness? What does it mean to be critical of every nuance to the point of no longer recognizing serendipitous gifts from the universe when they land right on your lap? Wasting the very thing you've been struggling, fighting tooth an...