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Writing Therapy

April 20, 2019
  I recently started writing out a traumatic experience. An experience that, at the time, felt so horrific I couldn't put it into words. I couldn't talk about it for years, when I did try to talk about it I had to be very careful how I worded it, who I talked to, and what…
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  • My Annoying Self
    April 17, 2019
    I recently re-found this page, and after re-reading a few old entries realized I was very annoying. If you read my past, please, make a note that I am not that same girl. I am keeping them unedited for myself, and research, but let's just leave that all back there in my teens and early…
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  • the letter you never read
    July 29, 2008
    I wanted to write you a letter. I wanted to sit in the grass as you read it. I wanted for you to hear me. I wanted to tell you I'm sorry. I wanted to tell you that I forgive you for all the hurt you brought upon us. I wanted to tell you I…
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  • maybe without you
    November 25, 2007
      There has been a lot of change the last few weeks. Jude's sister died and I'm not sure where to go from here. He's married and has been for a year and a half. Nate said he's "never been happier" and I'm not sure why I can't believe it. Is it my own vanity…
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  • Stupid hormones
    August 17, 2007
      Sometimes I get so confused. I had a three day weekend, and I was planning on heading home for Montana to get some fishing done when I was reminded that I had offered my floor to a couple of friends on their way through…so trying to be good to my word, I cleaned up…
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  • fragmented, weird, I don’t know what to call it.
    June 12, 2007
    I felt it that day. I felt your hand reach into me and tear my heart in half. The pain the wrenched through my whole body, as you held half of me in your hands and I learned my lesson then. When you came back to make it right, you had waited to long; you…
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  • On a hot tin roof.
    February 4, 2007
    I am the cat on the hot tin roof. I can’t get down because I’m still hoping that there is a reason for me to be up here; that maybe if I hold out a little longer I’ll get the break I’m praying for. Maybe if I keep dancing around up here he’ll see how…
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  • a letter he never gets
    February 3, 2007
    I really wish you would talk to me sometime...not just me talking to you about everything i'm feeling/thinking, but for you to actually talk to me. Maybe I'm asking to much, and if I am I'm sorry, but could we maybe try the whole talk thing, if you're scared of saying something that'll hurt me&he...
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  • just words
    February 1, 2007
    Sometimes it is easier when there is nothing expected. No guide lines, no rules, just sitting down and writing again, truly writing. The reason I fell in love with writing is simple, it was mine, completely and utterly mine. My words never abandon me. I cover them often, making it hard to find th...
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  • another day dawns…
    January 8, 2007
      7 is way to early for me. I don't know why but staying up til' 7 am is fine, getting up at 7 am is not. I even went to bed early last night, and still that 7 am just doesn't look like it should. when William was here, 7 am didn't look bad…
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