Recent Entries

• Good (but Exhausting) Day

  March 27, 2021

  Seems I'm usually exhausted with getting used to my new medicine. It was a good day today. Apparently I didn't do that badly coaching my peer yesterday, as we had the feedback sessions today. I took care of myself today. Drank water and ate when I needed to (compared to not doing so yesterday). M...

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• On Being Exhausted (and) System Commentary 03/26/2021

  March 26, 2021

  I feel exhausted, tired, frustrated, like I let my classmate down. Had class today and we were supposed to give coaching sessions. I feel I botched like half of it; the other half just went okay. I feel like maybe we didn't jive. Talked to a friend who was also frustrated, which compounded on my&...

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• Complaining About People Who Complain About Complainers

  March 25, 2021

  (Boring, unrelated part ->) Up at 2:30 in the morning. I wake up in the middle of the night every night. I've thought about picking up painting - I'd be rubbish at it, but I wonder if it wouldn't also be a good outlet for me. I love writing, and I'm currently working on a novel…

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• Nightmare

  March 24, 2021

  Had a nightmare. In it, I was forced to burn a book of a girl who was starved to death by her parents. There was also this monkey that came back to life who had been burned in a house fire. Another image flashed of a woman who'd been burned in the same house fire,…

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• System Commentary 03/23/2021

  March 24, 2021

  So, I've mentioned in a previous post that I've dealt with DID (or some variant) and C-PTSD. The voices in my head (sometimes outside of my head) pipe up from time to time to comment on what I do, how I'm doing, what I'm working on, etc. If I don't check in with them from…

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• My Writer’s Mind is Back

  March 23, 2021

  I'm so excited. My 'Writer's Mind' is back after much time being gone or partially non-existent. I can day-dream about my novels again without my medicine altering my brain to make it not inclined to do so. I'm liking this different medicine - that in and of itself makes me happy, even if it's th...

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• Mad Hatter

  March 21, 2021

  I mentioned in my previous entry that I took off work for mental health reasons for a couple of months. I had another episode where I was hearing voices, thinking that people were talking about me and laughing at me at the grocery store and restaurants. My voices were starting up again, specifica...

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• Coffee and Therapy

  March 15, 2021

  I've decided to start a diary. I need a place to record my thoughts that are anonymous but also public, so I can at least feel like I'm sharing them with someone. Currently off work on leave for a couple months due to mental health issues. I keep wanting to censor myself on here -…

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