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• Memories like films play on the wall

  December 30, 2018

  "Memories like films play on the wall of another self, another life A story without end that still lives on So much that passed us by is forever gone." — Wonder, VNV Nation   2018 threw me one hell of a curveball and taught me something I should have learned long ago. I should have let go&he...

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• Silence can you hear me? Press me to your lips

  December 20, 2018

  I’ve not written here in a few months. I could have possibly used this space a few times but I simply just didn’t want to record the events of this year. At least not one. This year was one year I wish wasn’t a bad one. I thought last year was, but this year really…

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• I cannot leave here, I cannot stay

  September 12, 2018

  I let myself cry now. And there really is no holding back. It's not the full on cry, the cry that makes you a mess. It's the kind of cry that you just get out of your system, and yet it's enough to drag me into an emotional exhaustion. It's the kind of cry that's very…

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• I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing through the melting walls.

  August 12, 2018

  There are days when the darkness finds it’s way back into my life and just as quickly as it did, it fades. There are moments when I find myself falling down and wondering if I’ll get back up. There are moments in my life right now where I think about cutting even though I’ve been…

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• Let’s amend the classic story, close it so beautifully

  July 22, 2018

  I didn't forget about this place. I just simply tried to put words on the screen a month ago and never finished the entry. And while I could go in detail and tell the all of what has happened a small part of me just sort of feels like giving cliff notes because it's a…

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• Never will I forget you, and all the memories past.

  April 29, 2018

    Today. Twenty years since Weldon Linscomb left this world. He was my first best friend, and the one who began to get me out of my shell. It's unbelievable that its been this long since I last saw him. I still remember every memory, every small detail and our time spent together, and the&he...

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• The memories ease the pain inside now I know why

  April 21, 2018

  I should be sleeping. Instead I was doing a little thing called late night reading. The weather is cool enough to let the windows open and my bedroom one is. I’ll hear random sounds.   Music being one of them. And it’s triggered a bout of sadness. Strange how music can trigger memories and emotio...

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• This moment will just be another story someday.

  April 7, 2018

  There's something about live music, going to a show and seeing a band or singer you simply must see in concert. For me it's an experience and in some cases something I find to be quite amazing once the afterglow sets in. Last Thursday was such an experience that the afterglow lasted three days. L...

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• If you could bring one person back from the dead and have a conversation with, who would it be?

  April 1, 2018

  Without a single second thought I know exactly who I would bring back to converse with. My best friend Weldon who I lost in 1998. April 29, 2018 will mark twenty years since his death. I still can't believe to this day that its been that long. That I've lived past losing him, which to…

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