questioning

I want to sleep out in my Jeep tonight. Because I went out there to see if I could convert the back into, like, a bedroom, with mini-couch and T.V. and DVD player, etc, make it nice, livable, and the lights turned off on the inside after a few minutes and I was laying down…

I’m sorry I’m such a fucking ass, self-centered little prick, who sits in a corner. I’m tired, my contacts make my head ache, and I’m Jealous. Okay. Okay. I just wanna rebel, and give a stone wall, and cut everything off and not respond to you. I know I’m fucking stupid, I know I really…

Tonight I’m going to hang out with a pretty girl, who off puts me in some way, and also makes me melt, in a way.I figured why I turned 3 years younger last night, it’s because I can’t handle people getting close to Sarah, where I can see it, which I should get over. I…

Just came from work on my break because I have to tell you what I just got over.A girl, who I guess in some circumstances could be pretty, but who is very tall and above me (in position) told me basically that I was un-good-looking, and it came out of nowhere because I made a…

So yesterday was my birthday and I went to school, hung out with a teacher, came home and got some happy birthday phone calls, went to dinner with mom and got no physical presents.Didn't even drink, and I'm 21.It was the best birthday I've had.

I have a really good teacher this semester. I've been going through something bad lately and having her, as sad as it is, gives me some sort of purpose. She makes my thoughts grow. I feel so warm in my chest thinking about my head when I'm around her. (It's not a crush, she's 58,…

So all today I was feeling very depressed, “suicidal” but not enough to kill myself or anything, and I went to work like that, and was put on Express (the express aisle) and just the customers were being fucking assholes I’m sorry to say that but, I was just not having a good day.I went…

I don't know if I help her when she's sad. What I tend to do, what I think a lot of people don't, is to just be quiet. Let them talk, let them think it out before puting something in there and messing up an emotion, changing it.And maybe I'll make a question here, or…

I read some one's blog today. "But I knew instanteously upon meeting him that Jon Strong only cared about Jon Strong, except when it was beneficial for him to do other wise."I'm really trying to get my head around it. It comes from a girl at work who liked me and I did stuff with…

I hung out with some younger-than's today, had fun, sweated, actually did something non-constructive, what the fuck happened to me. When did I become so boring and mundane, lately I've been seeing my dad pretty much basing his happiness on the thought that I'll be famous someday, and lately I fee...