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Learning To Read

August 30, 2023
When I was young, one of the hardest things for me was learning how to read. I remember sitting at the kitchen table in my parents house, homework spread out, nose jammed in the pages. And I'd just sit there and cry. Unable to make sense of the letters before me. I couldn't turn the…
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