#abuse

I want to be a positive person. I truly do. But recently, as I take on more responsibilities as a (step) mom I feel overwhelmingly negative and, honestly, depressed. I love this kid and I love the opportunity I have to be in their life. But I am having such a hard time not being…

I don’t want to trigger anyone. I do want to use this open diary as a safe place for myself and everyone else to share our honest thoughts. Mine aren’t always good but they aren’t always bad either. I am struggling a lot that’s for sure. I read back on my entries from 2007 and…

Hi, this is my first ever entry. I had a little freak out today. My mother is planning on moving back with my step-father for what seems to be around the 11th time. Because we are minors, my brother and I must go with her. I feel like my heart is further shattering in a…

warning, not appropriate for kids or anyone who doesn't like adult content/swearing.               So I did a thing to get over another thing, classic emotional acting without any common sense. My really good friend and also friend with benefits guy overdosed a ...

I loved you when you first kissed me, in a hospital 80 miles away. You rubbed the space between my fingers, In my mind you would stay. I loved you, patrick, when our bodies connected in a halfway house 60 miles away you touched my body and my spirit In the depths of my soul…

So I finally grew a pair and ended my almost 11 year relationship only 4 days ago, I really thought that i was doing the right thing by discussing things together and telling him what my plans were and i thought that everything was going ok until last night. Last night he was drinking alone…

Christmas and end of the year always affect me. I’ve had nightmares almost every night since November and now December. About people that abused me. It’s stressful waking up and not let it affect me or my day. I don’t want to worry my husband so I no longer say anything about the nightmares.  Fin...

Let's spend a moment talking about the man who has been predominately by my side for an upwards of nearly two years. I don't know how or why I'm even thinking about sharing these things I ponder with you, but I need an outlet. I met him, in a situation that anyone could guess wasn't…

Heres a quick back story. I am a recovering heroin addict. I once faced a life full of drugs, abuse, job losses and institutionalization and incarceration. Lost almost everything, went through the legal system, went through rehabilitation, graduated treatment court and nursing school. I am now an...