#abuse

Sitting at my desk starring at the bright screen like I've done all the nights before and it's 12:34 a.m. Days go by and every morning as the time passes by I keep seeing 12:34 a.m. No minute more no minute less. Days go by an it's 12:34 a.m. again. My guardian angels are trying…

Catching up with Lucy Friday, 24th April 2015 Dearest Friend, It's been a while since I've seen Lucy in company! I was delighted that we were able to catch up earlier today. I often think about her while I'm busy at college and wonder how she's keeping. I don't know what it is but when…

In 2020, I ended my 8 years long physically and emotionally abusive marriage. We didn't have children together, and I ensured that he would never have contact with my children from a previous relationship in court. I thought that after I cut off all contact, sold the house, disappeared so he woul...

I have awaited this moment for over a year now. The day I can write about me moving out of my apartment with Roomie and feeling free of her manipulation. I had prepared to make my exit during December, but I did not want to leave around Christmas--because it seemed like too much hassle and…

I guess i dont really know why i decided to go "public" with my diary entries. Part of it was due to laziness i know that... handwriting takes a lot more effort! A bit about me - I've always journalled from a young age. I guess it was a way for me to express how…

I think I've been too hard on him lately. The reality is I do need to let go of the past, but I'm scared of history repeating itself. I am by no means perfect, and I think I've been reflecting my own opinions of myself onto him. I've been feeling guilty, so I make him…

when he attacked me I was scared for my life. I have never seen a man go that crazy on his own daughter. I felt so defenseless. he's still pissed off at me. he's mad that I hit him back but it wasn't even like that. it was self defense. I was actually scared for…

sometimes I sit and think about how everything happened and how I ended up here. and there's only two reasons why well.. three if you count my dad. 1. my first boyfriend 2. the day I got into a car accident and had to face a decade worth of surgeries. I never really talk about…

I want to be a positive person. I truly do. But recently, as I take on more responsibilities as a (step) mom I feel overwhelmingly negative and, honestly, depressed. I love this kid and I love the opportunity I have to be in their life. But I am having such a hard time not being…

I don’t want to trigger anyone. I do want to use this open diary as a safe place for myself and everyone else to share our honest thoughts. Mine aren’t always good but they aren’t always bad either. I am struggling a lot that’s for sure. I read back on my entries from 2007 and…