#addiction

I had another glorious day yesterday. Although I didn’t sleep much, I got out of bed and bought a #5 from McDonalds(McGriddle meal) & drove across the street to pick up a cinnamon dolce latte from Starbucks. I came home and savored every morsel. I canceled all my plans for the day because I w...

I never made it to the recording studio yet. Instead, I’ve been battling my addiction. Constantly I’ve been feeling cravings. I noticed my cravings come from frustration. But by having a clear mind, I am able to work through the problem quicker and more effectively. Sometimes I get frustrated tha...

I’m staying at my parents house for the third night in a row. I have a meeting for my next music video in the morning. I meet with this guy named Matt for the first time. I’m planning to go over the storyboard. Then I will be in the recording studio to finalize three songs…

01/01/2023 Guilt, Guilty.... That feeling has became a consistent feeling.. one I have lived with for a long time and one that I will have to continue to live with because of ME. I need t0 remember its okay..  baby steps..  and most importantly  I need to remember the number ONE! One SECOND, One ...

On 06-10-2022 I lost another family member, my little sister, to alcohol induced cirrhosis of the liver! A few years earlier my older sister passed from the same condition/disease/stupidity, plus an addiction to Oxycodone/Percodan, a few years before that I lost my Aunty who also died from this s...

I don't really know what I am waiting for. I am waiting for this flu to be gone, I am bored. I don't know how to be lazy. I did laundry and cleaned the house a little.  I am skipping church tomorrow to make sure all my germs are gone.  I can't be dropping my…

Hello Everyone,             Well for starters I would like to take a brief moment and introduce myself!  My name is Patsy, I turned 37 years old yesterday (8/29/1984) woot woot Virgo! I have been at war within myself and battling my own demons on top of soul wrenching, body crippling,…

Looking for room, somewhat desperate, almost willing to share a studio with two others. Looking for validation perhaps. Looking for a way in. thinking about the new neighbors in apt. # 7 saw them through the window once and they seemed excited to be in a new place. Thinking about how old they are...

I was going through old emails and noticed I missed an email from the Diary Master back in August saying they had my diary available to restore. I guess I missed the email because August 2020 was a horrible month for me. In August 2020 I finally took my ass to rehab to deal with…

Dear Universe, I used to frequent this site, many moons ago, in the early 2000s, as a teenager. I cannot recall my username; therefore I have less to cringe at. Now I am in my 30s. I think I need to make this journal part of my journey, my therapy. Yesterday I underwent an assessment…