#addiction

I used to always escape the sad pathetic life I live with drugs but haven't been using for two months. every second I would become sober my life would become hell. if I couldn't get my hands on it I felt like I was dead on the inside. it changed me for the worse. I…

Recently I've been pretty self destructive.  It's my fault and I shouldn't, because it's you who wins when I do nonsense like this. But I've been going through the facebook page you had when you were with *James and I hurt myself by looking at the posts between the two of you. The love you…

I want to be a positive person. I truly do. But recently, as I take on more responsibilities as a (step) mom I feel overwhelmingly negative and, honestly, depressed. I love this kid and I love the opportunity I have to be in their life. But I am having such a hard time not being…

Happy Christmas Eve everyone! If you want to help me in my journey please check this video out and subscribe to my youtube channel for more vlogging fun. https://youtu.be/IcwxqkPmCW4 ANYWAYS. I feel much better today, I've been somewhat depressed lately and I know things are going to work out. It...

It's weird just hard it is for me start going on anything. These past few weeks I've really gotten back into art which I have not done in a very long time. But this time around I have Facebook, Snapchat, Instagram, Youtube (fuck you, Youtube) to distract me which I didn't really give a shit…

So it's back on day 1. I've been drinking non stop since my last time. I'm tired. I'm sick. I'm over it. I need to do this. Day 1. Again.

Well i did it. Its 9.11pm and I'm getting tired from a day of boredom and stress and making myself distracted every 2 seconds with horrible chores. My partner wanted to go out tonight... so I had to tell him that I'm trying to quit drinking and I dont feel comfortable going out because it'll…

Its 11.16 and I've been up since 8am. First thought... coffee then beer. So I had my coffee. Then I had another coffee. Then i cleaned the house from top to bottom. I've literally done everything. And now its 11.16. And I'm sitting on the couch wondering what to do. I dont want to eat…

It's time to quit drinking. I'm 30 years old... and I've finally realised I have a problem. Actually i realized quite a while ago but never strong enough to address it. It's funny because I'm sitting in my car right now... drinking a 6 pack... telling myself it's time. Except I can't even put thi...