#addiction

You knew my past. You knew I came from shit. You knew what my Father had done to me, you knew what other men had done to me. You repeatedly coerced me to be raw and vulnerable with you, you convinced me to trust you. I really did trust you. But now, well now I…

I'm not sure what I'm trying to get out of posting this in public.  I guess I feel kinda dumb writing thoughts down to no one.  So, dear diary I guess.  Tomorrow will be the first day without smoking weed in a long time.  And honestly, it's only because I'm getting surgery.  I'm getting surgery&h...

I fell into what felt like a pillow made of boobs and cotton candy while being cuddled by a beautiful unicorn. That's what it felt like. I was done for. Of course when I found out I was livid. I wanted to hurt Aaron for ruining my life but at the end of the day…

When I was a little girl there were a group of older boys I couldn't stand. These boys were trouble, always instigating fights and jumping my brother and I never knew one of these boys I hated I would end up falling in love with and would change my life forever...       Aaron…

I have struggled with addiction my entire life although I only learned this a few years ago, a story for another day.  Without mentioning specifics, it started with uppers and I struggled with those through my early 20's.  My late 20's and early to mid 30's and I guess current would be opiates an...

Today marks the 15th day since I gave up alcohol. The pandemic came about while I was living in the Pacific Northwest, Oregon to be exact. It's a rainy, gloomy environment where drinking alcohol is the average hobby of most. I too fed into the madness of finding the crown jewel of beer, the IPA&h...

I'm unfortunately struggling with addiction, its really hard to stop. I would like to minimize how often I use this substance but I'm not sure how and where I'd start. any helpful tips/info would be appreciated.

It’s 3 am and I’m awake. So very awake. Only one day into this new bottle and I’m already taking more than I told myself I would. Every day I say tomorrow. Tomorrow never comes. So here I am, awake at 3am. A little worried about doing tomorrow with so little sleep. Worried about stupid…

It's crazy to think that less than six months ago I was so ready to have a baby with T. It's so strange how quickly things can change. When I thought I was pregnant last month months ago, it should have been a great bonding time for us. Instead, something felt off. I felt like if…

Hello !! I'm new here! Ive always loved having an online journal & love talking to other people who go through similar things I have gone through. I'm 28 years old I'm a CNA & I love my job! I was addicted to meth for 8 years & have been sober for 3 years now…