#affair

For weeks I have been crying every day, but today, more than ever, I feel alone and defeated. DEFEATED is the right word and it is also painful. To make things worse, my tooth broke! Now I am laughing, but I guess is despair. I don't know from where to start. Maybe from the beginning.…

Hey there. Forgot about this place. I wrote one entry four years ago on this new account, and then life got in the way, as it is wont to do. I suppose I said what needed to be said at the time. In the past, I've just come here when Nicola springs to mind. I…

Hi, I'm new here. Giving this website a try, mainly because there isn't much else for me to turn to. I've been married to my husband for 15 years next month. We have been together for 18 next month. High school sweethearts. The problem is in the years we have been married he has had…

I do recognize when things started to change. To be honest, I can’t fault him for his reasoning. Although I don’t agree with it, it was his reasoning so it was real to him. Around November of 2019 (I believe it was around then) his son got involved in a horrible scary situation. The reality…

Initially I friended him on FB and he accepted my friend request. Then, the next day, we weren’t friends anymore. Curious 🤨  It was a Saturday morning when I messaged him on messenger the first time. He replied and we messaged for a bit. He mentioned his faith a few times so I gathered he…

It’s been a few months that I have really wanted to journal this thing, but having been burned in the past for keeping a “paper” journal, I vowed I’d never journal about the deep dark things again. Yet, almost daily, I have a desire to write these thoughts and feelings out. I’m taking that as&hel...

I miss you. I miss the sound of your voice.  I miss the feel of your skin. I miss the sparkles in your eyes.  But I do not miss your sins. I miss the way you make me laugh.  I miss the way you hold me. I miss feeling safe with you.  But I don’t…

Listen to the dread.  It is never wrong. I’ve had three serious relationships in my life.  Antonio, EJ and Michael. Antonio was my first love.  As an adolescent, I adored him.  I thought he was smart, charismatic and funny.  I was a senior in High School and I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do…

Thanksgiving without her was different. I want to forgive her for what she's done but i cant get over that she's done this before and she will again. I want to do whats right for my kids, i think they are taking it well (on the outside) however on the inside i know they are…

I think writing a couple of things to show where i am emotionally on this roller coaster of the process to end a 17 yr old marriage (that i thought was a happy one)  after a couple of cheating episodes helps me cope with the situation. I keep telling myself, this too will pass.... things…