#bipolar

It's just one of those days where you don't know left from right or up from down. I'm struggling with so many things, yet it doesn't seem like much. Everybody tells me I am doing such a good job, yet I get no freedom. I'm living under a constant watchful eye who criticizes and never…

Ugh, I'm so depressed. When I feel this way, it feels like it's going to last forever, even if I am only feeling it for a few minutes. I'm off my anti-depressants. I've been bobbing around from one prescription to another, each having its own set of side problems, the latest being an issue with&h...

7:25am  Clarence is watching cartoons right now. I don't know why but when Dan left for work today I was a little relieved. We don't have any issues i'm not mad at him or anything.    8:39am   Im having pretzel pieces for breakfast. We're running really low on food again. We never have enoug...

Hi!  So Im looking for ideas on     paintings,           drawings,                or some d.i.y home decor!  💖💜😇(please comment your ideas!!)😇💙💚

After our semi-exciting drive on the Icy roads in the ghetto, we semi-drift into my sister’s HUD home. I look into his dreamy eyes and feel an extrinsic amount of love and admiration for him. I feel obsessed. I express to him how much I love him and he looks me dead in the eyes…

I am bipolar: it does not exist without me and I do not exist without it.  I was diagnosed the summer of 2007, and it did not occur to me, that we are inseparable until lately, 14 years later.   Bipolar and other mental illnesses have wreaked havoc on my life and self perception.  My current…

So I have Bipolar Disorder. I have been on lithium since January 2011. It changed my life. I began to function again. However, the lithium has terrible side effects. It’s toxic to the kidneys, it makes me super dehydrated, and I have problems with frequent urination, exhaustion, and weight gain. ...

I laugh at how bad things get. It’s comical how living with a psychopathic kleptomaniac has changed the way I view the world, and even the universe. I attract women who are pretty, but completely tragic, and they think that somehow befriending me is a ticket to a perpetual rock concert, and they’...

So I didn’t write for a few days. I wish I could claim I was busy. But I spend most of my day sleeping. I don’t fall asleep until 4am and I end up sleeping until 9am, I get up and eat so I can take my meds, then I go back to bed til…

So I haven't blogged in probably 8 or so years. I used to be an active Xanga user. I had a pretty big following on there and had friends I actually spoke to over skype sometimes. But most blogging sites seem to have disappeared. I read about this one and I decided to try it.…