#eatingdisorder

Fragile So small and so fragile, One small push and you break into a million pieces. So small, I easily step and look down at you with a cold hatred gaze while you lay there unable to do nothing, I overpower with ease after all I am bigger and stronger. So why? Why as I'm…

Every day for the past 40 years I've felt like the little girl who ran upstairs to pack my clothes in a black garbage bag so my mom could take me home with her. Why didn't she love me? Why did she keep leaving me. I rushed because she said it was time to go,…

yeah, just like the title says, i can't shit. I know I know, TMI, but there is a perfectly normal and logical reason for this, you see I have an ED and I just keep getting termed on tumblr and I'm tired of my posts getting taken down so yeah... I guess I'm gonna rant…

I'm a 16, girl, and this is my 5-year journey. 6th Grade- I've grown up as a fat, obese child: in 6th grade, I began skipping meals to lose weight and it worked, but it wasn't noticeable. It was overlooked as me just growing and slimming out, but I was still overweight at this time. Mental…

Struggling so hard to keep it all together. The drama and emotions of everyone in my family has been overwhelming. I just want everyone to be happy so I try so hard to make everyone’s life easier and more peaceful, this is what my dad used to do and I know it’s not healthy, however…

So, I started restricting again on May, 11th of this year. It started at first as a way to keep myself from self harming by cutting and overdosing. I knew those would eventually get me into trouble again and I didn’t want to take that risk. Sadly, I find it’s much easier to hide an…

Just writing this entry to let all the people who might come across my journal and be offended, disturbed or triggered....I am sorry. Please just don’t ready my entries. Honestly I only came back to this site to journal my daily struggles in life And to try and help myself and let out my emotions...

Woohoo. I was down another pound today which made my very happy and excited and able to get through the day. Yes started restricting again or rather not eating after 7pm and I’ve lost a total of 7lbs since May 11th. My bmi was at the brink of the overweight category so I needed to…

I’ve got a ways to go but I’ll get there. My lowest weight at 5’4 was 95lbs. Oh how I wish I would have appreciated my body then. I used to think I was fat at that weight. Wish I could go back in time and just appreciate my body. I’ve come to the conclusion…

So once again I’m writing in here to just let my emotions out so I don’t act irrationally.     I am not ok, not mentally well and I don’t claim to be. The one thing that urkes me the most however is the assholes who read my deepest secrets and thoughts and then feel…