#feelings

I think I am a good writer. When it comes to putting the thoughts in my head onto paper, I got this! I don’t know how to turn 'this' into something though, something meaningful, useful or lucrative even. Why do I want to make something of 'this' skill? I literally sound like a mad person,…

Ugh, I'm so depressed. When I feel this way, it feels like it's going to last forever, even if I am only feeling it for a few minutes. I'm off my anti-depressants. I've been bobbing around from one prescription to another, each having its own set of side problems, the latest being an issue with&h...

i am not really good at writing, i honestly i am not good at this. well, even in uttering my words really hard for me to construct. my thoughts when i speak or write come out differently or i dont know it seems empty. not empty it just that i cannot express what i wanted…

Does the title make sense? I'm okay. And I'm not. But I am and yet sometimes I'm just sad. But I'm okay. Funny. What does okay even mean? I'm so very blessed. God is always great. I want to heal inside. Lose the pent up emotions so I could be free. Be kind sincerely again.…

Today I can feel the weight of it Today I can feel the long-haul of the journey I can feel the desperation and the wanting Today I can feel the emptiness, that ringing in my ears that the silence brings I can feel the temptations the desires seeping out the sin of of my soul…

It would feel that way when you are just mirroring things back to me. I really am just talking to me. Still sounds better coming from you. The ruminating really hurts my brain. I hope it goes away soon. You really like to push buttons lol. I was talking to that ex of mine one…

I am feeling a bit more optimistic lately and a bit more capable of recognizing and breathing through my anxieties. I am also very happy that switching to a new birth control pill contributed to feeling a bit more stable. The underlying PTSD and anxieties are already there, and a negative hormone...

The values held by my father were manipulation, lying, and inflicting pain on others. Never humility, generosity, resiliency, honesty, kindness, integrity. I had to learn these along the way after I was a teenager. My mother taught me love, determination, and how to be fiercely protective of thos...

Hm..... I seem to feel a little bit better. And by that I mean... everything is still there, but maybe I am starting to feel more integrated. Like I am experiencing the range of emotions rather than stifling most of them. My anxiety is still very high, but usually the depression feels as high as&...

I have to keep trying to do the things that I love. I need to find my beads. I need to set up a craft area. I need to get a folding card table. These need to be priorities. Because I am loosing my damn mind. And I need something to do with my hands.…