#introspection

Let me preface by noting I have an inexplicable desire to spell valium like it's in the etymological school of 'vacuum' so I'll occasionally spell it 'valuum.' You get what you pay for around here. Tonight I've been irritable since about 4:30 when I woke up from my nap.  And I haven't been able t...

I. This bowing technique of chasing night’s agency fills a mixed bag of modalities, a bag of answerless questions, like how eager to be distant are the words that get wind-blown off the tongue and disappear like the sun when it’s sleek and setting into the backdrop like an underbite? Due to be st...

In the calmest corners of our minds, silence often serves as a balm, healing wounds and offering solace when the world becomes too loud. It can be therapeutic, a canvas upon which we paint our deepest thoughts and meditations. However, silence is also the one thing we never wish to hear in respon...

I am just letting days pass until the 20th which is when I have surgery. There is a pre-surgery meeting on the 6th and, apparently I get to talk to the anesthesiologist. Usually I am asked if I have any problems with anesthetic to which I say no and that is it. When Jake was…

I hope everyone had a nice Boxing Day. Jake came over on Christmas Day and we exchanged gifts. My older son in MS also called me later in the day as did Fred's daughter in Vermont. Today the plan was that I go over to Jake's house to see the changes he has made after…

Yesterday I made a great potato and ham soup. The only problem is that, like chillie, I don't seem to be able to make a small amount! But it does seem to be something that like stew, tastes better the second day {Yes, purely for the purpose of checking since this was the first time…

I did not realize until very recently how much stress my poor body had gone through since Fred died. And what made me think of this? The fact that I am back to normal. These days I wake up happy and hungry, the way I used to be! I read somewhere that the death of…

I was writing yesterday that I have had two consecutive days of energy where I got things done. Well, I was wrong, it was actually three days of feeling normal with little to no pain and the ability to get small necessary jobs done. However, last night broke the chain. I went to be early--sleep&h...

Thanksgiving was a bit sad this year because I missed my lovely neighbors in Vermont who always brought me a plate of food and checked on me. If you are wondering where Jake was, he was down in MS visiting his dad and his brother and, I am assuming, the rest of his relatives down…

This is a good day. I slept from midnight to 7 AM. I got up feeling good. {This means my back hurt minimally when I got up and that minimal pain went away after the back exercises.} I just pressed the "buy button" to get myself a pair of fleece-lined slippers through Amazon. I need…