#mentalillness

I'm a runner. It's what I have always done. I'm trying to break the habit, and have made considerable baby steps, but it still remains my first instinct when faced with conflict. It's got to be stopped. If I was a meme, it'd be a photo of me, with captions above it that read: "If…

“Anybody remotely interesting is mad, in some way or another.” ~Dr. Who When I tell someone about my illness for the first time it frequently elicits the following reaction: "YOU?  DEPRESSED?  You're always so bubbly and happy!!"   My response: "You don't see me during the depressive episodes whe...

“Are you a psychopath or a sociopath?” ~Title of recent Michael Savage podcast's interview with neuroscientist Dr. James Fallon When I heard Michael Savage (longtime radio personality who has multiple degrees and a doctorate in epidemiology - fascinating man) announce the title for a recent podca...

Ana and Mia continue to rise…I’m not complaining, they’re making me feel strong in some twisted sense. I know it’s not healthy, but nor is the extra weight that I’m carrying, so why not let them run riot and use it to my advantadge. There’s something so satisfying in being able to beat the hunger...

I thought I would write this entry to fully explain the kind of chaos that goes on inside my head at any given moment… Basically the complete and TOTAL truth about me… The good, the bad, and the ugly… My Truths: Just because I am nice to you does not mean I actually like you… I generally…

So… Sometimes you need to take a long hard look at yourself, but it’s not always your true reflection that stares back at you. I so rarely see myself when I look in the mirror that I often wonder if the dysmorphia stemmed the mental health issues, or did the mental health issues create the…

So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…

“Crystal heart in the graveyard, I think it’s time for a new start...” Kailee Morgue (Unfortunate Soul)   So...   I didn’t go for coffee with Straight Girl. Instead I had a chat with Pip about what’s going on and how I’m struggling with the inside of my own head, and then I went and sat...

“Crystal heart in the graveyard, I think it’s time for a new start...” Kailee Morgue (Unfortunate Soul)   So...   I didn’t go for coffee with Straight Girl. Instead I had a chat with Pip about what’s going on and how I’m struggling with the inside of my own head, and then I went and sat...