#trauma

Sitting at my desk starring at the bright screen like I've done all the nights before and it's 12:34 a.m. Days go by and every morning as the time passes by I keep seeing 12:34 a.m. No minute more no minute less. Days go by an it's 12:34 a.m. again. My guardian angels are trying…

https://outofthefog.website/what-it-feels-like/ This is a collection of articles describing what it can feel like to be in a relationship with someone who suffers from a personality disorder. Feeling Isolated - It's common for people who have a relationship with someone who suffers from a persona...

My Iron Lobster is now a Spotify playlist too. 9 more days and the dissolution will be final, taking back my innocence, legally. I am keeping my married name for my daughter and because that is a lot of paperwork; Ill change it when I remarry. My Aunt has been away out of state, she…

Frank brought our daughter home today, I let my guard down. I wasn’t paying attention and he made it in the house. My baby was sleeping and he had my stepson with him. I was getting out of my head and into my body; I was dancing around the living room. My stepson came in…

Exploitive relationships create trauma bonds. These occur when a victim bonds with someone who is destructive to them. Similarly, adult survivors of abusive and dysfunctional families struggle with bonds that are rooted in their own trauma experiences. To be loyal to that which does not work - or...

It would feel that way when you are just mirroring things back to me. I really am just talking to me. Still sounds better coming from you. The ruminating really hurts my brain. I hope it goes away soon. You really like to push buttons lol. I was talking to that ex of mine one…

My ex can build computers from scratch, he is smart like that. I don't trust him much; he is emotionally immature and abusive from my perspective; he lies to me. I bought a new computer he has never touched and started a new email. I am not taking any chances that he put spyware on…

Catching up with Lucy Friday, 24th April 2015 Dearest Friend, It's been a while since I've seen Lucy in company! I was delighted that we were able to catch up earlier today. I often think about her while I'm busy at college and wonder how she's keeping. I don't know what it is but when…

I am looking for a fuck to give today. I see how tired my partner looks. Deep in his eyes, he's as tired as if he'd fought in three wars. His grandma who is like his mother is dying. He is in a crazy busy PhD program. And I am just loosing my shit over…