#trauma

You sent her this song.  Followed by a slew of messages talking about how you never wanted to leave her - she didn't want to let you go.  The last time you sent me a song.... I honestly can't remember, maybe never? I know you have come home to play something on YouTube, but to…

TW: abuse, SA, domestic abuse, grooming, drug abuse [no detailed descriptions] When I was a young teen, think 13 years old, I had a prophetic dream. It was vivid, surreal, and absolutely foreshadowed a major event in my life. Normally we don't think of meeting people as an event, but this was. In...

How does it affect you? When the most vivid memory of your little days, is when the big, strong man who you should have seen as a protector, you now see as the man who tried to throw your mums life away like it was nothing? Like anger, alcohol, and a few choice words are…

"imagine yourself unafraid. you have no doubts, no worries, no fears of the unknown. the things you used to worry about do not exist. write about what you would do if this was the case. what would do you if you weren't afraid?"  i would be more social. i would go to parties; meet more…

I have so many thoughts in my head it makes me unwell. My mouth can’t keep up with my thoughts and my thoughts can’t keep up with my feelings. I need to empty my brain out and put all of my thoughts in written words just to even understand how I feel about basic things.…

... and tonight I'm drowning... I want to be happy... but I don't know how to fix myself. I've learned to sit with my feelings and hurt for a while and then move on when they are over, but lately it seems like there are too many and I'm not better off than months ago.…

People see what they want. A pretty girl. Nice smile, an even better ass. Everyone wants to touch me. And I hate it. I hate it when I get harassed. I hate it when men stare. I hate it when women stare. I hate it. I hate myself for this attention. When will I be…

It has been 848 days since the false accusation happened and our lives haven’t been the same. Days like today really bring me down, I haven’t heard from R since about 7am and normally he calls a few times to check in. Naturally my brains goes into worst case scenario every time because this situa...

I read my first hentai manga today (which was Metamorphosis) . And I absolutely hated it. I may have just started off on a manga that was too graphic. either that, or I just dont like porn. I've seen some shit, but reading that traumatized me.   manga description:   In middle school, Sa...

Sitting at my desk starring at the bright screen like I've done all the nights before and it's 12:34 a.m. Days go by and every morning as the time passes by I keep seeing 12:34 a.m. No minute more no minute less. Days go by an it's 12:34 a.m. again. My guardian angels are trying…