#venting

I don't even know where to start except that it's 3 am and I'm crying in the living room again. I feel so lonely. God I feel so lonely. I get the distinct feeling that my husband doesn't like me very much. We don't connect. If we do, it's literally for like, 3 seconds maybe…

Romance isn’t nearly as easy as it seems. Especially for an over thinker such as myself. Every second you’re not texting them, every second you aren’t talking to them, they are always in your mind. Furthermore, if something happens that even slightly makes you upset, it hits at least 20x harder b...

I took my daughter to the Developmental Specialist Monday for her 2-year checkup. She was born at 25 weeks and 2 days; she weighed 905 grams. She was so small they weighed her in grams. Due to her premature lungs, she received a monthly antibody shot during RSV season her 1st year of life; it’s&h...

Once again I find myself up at night, questioning my actions, questioning your actions, and wondering if we are going to make it. My gut tells me we are, but you ability to end things at the drop of a pin make me question. Although relationships are so much more complex, I truly believe it…

Trust is everything when it comes to a relationship. Here we find ourselves, neither of us trusting the other. Did I ever fully trust you? There were things that happened very early on in the relationship that caused me not to trust you. Rather than take them head on, you justified your actions, ...

My therapist said I should start journaling, so here I am. It feels like Covid really fucked everything up, but maybe it was just a catalyst for the inevitable. We started off so happy, but now neither one of us can say anything. How did we get to this place, how did we become what…

I’ve told myself a hundred times that I would never write these things down. The ugly things I feel when disappointment settles upon me in waves. A dismissive grunt here, a passing comment on the greater importance of your existence in comparison to mine. That your income is more important to our...