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I Need A Goal

November 12, 2022
Something I can strive for and work towards. I have no idea what it should be. It's very difficult for me to think about long-term goals and then work towards them and it always has been. I just don't know how to do day-to-day bullshit while working toward something. It's been even harder being a...
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Recent Entries

  • A Good Week
    October 22, 2022
    I feel like I'm getting back to my "normal" after Parental Unit's hospital/physical rehab stint. I still worry about them to a point that's not healthy for me mentally and physically but at least I can recognize it, most of the time. I want them to be able to live happily and as normally as…
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  • Some Good Things…Ok, not really
    October 16, 2022
    I really try to write here when good things are happening but I just can't make myself do it. Instead, I try to enjoy the good things as much as possible b/c I know that bad things are on the way. The Parental Unit has hit another wall of negativity and I'm just so tired…
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  • Things and Stuff
    September 10, 2022
    Had a long talk with the Parental Unit yesterday about how things are going to be when they’re released from physical rehab back home. I can’t go back to the way things were being the only one they call for issues, going over there every single day. While they’ve been recovering from the fall I&h...
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  • Busy Week
    August 28, 2022
    Right after my last entry I went over to get meds for the week setup for the Parental Unit and found them on the floor. Apparently, they fell at some point overnight and weren't able to get to the phone or alert button. They were in remarkably good spirits but that all changed when I…
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  • OverWhelmed
    August 20, 2022
    The Parental Unit started having issues yesterday...Just, not all there mentally (more than usual) and they forgot to take the morning meds they've been taking for almost 10 years. I suggested going to the ER and they flat out refused so, ok...I tend to catastrophize everything when the slightest...
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  • 2 Entries In A Row!!
    August 14, 2022
    I feel like yesterday’s post went off the rails. Things aren’t as bad as they seem most days. I have a tendency to catastrophize things but when I take a step back and logically think things through they’re not as bad as my brain tells me they are. It took years (and thousands of dollars)…
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  • The Slog Continues
    August 13, 2022
    Another week down. I sit in my usual spot at my usual coffee shop thinking about the week that was. It wasn’t great. I felt sick, mentally, which made me feel sick physically so a lot of my responsibilities got pushed off. That’s the thing about being an adult, when you “take time off” you’re&hel...
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  • Another Week Down
    August 6, 2022
    Ordered a new book called 4000 weeks. I'm looking forward to reading it as it has good reviews. I've been thinking a lot about my own mortality lately and, honestly, it helps me reconcile things with my caregiving duties. This is but a phase of life for me right now. I can only do what…
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  • Finally Doing Something!
    July 30, 2022
    I've dabbled in investing over several years but I was never really serious about or serious about planning for my retirement. In caring for the Parental Unit I've realized just how crucial proper planning is. They have some money but it's likely not going to be enough for skilled care if that's ...
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