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• People suck

  December 20, 2013

  You know, people are really hateful.   I was thinking about something I saw not long ago. It was an ad for a device that helps an obese person reach behind to wipe after using the bathroom. Some nasty-ass made the comment, "So much for diet and exercise, huh?" or something like tha...

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• Ever have a day

  December 6, 2013

  When you feel too stupid to live? Yeah, today is one of those for me.    

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• A little regret before sleeping

  November 26, 2013

  I'm indulging a little in....well, I suppose regret has a part to play in it. Whatever it is, I am thinking of my relationship with Nanny. I watched a video interview of a daughter about her mother, and it got me to thinking. Granted, Nanny was my grandmother, but in my own life, that was…

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• Fear – continuation of last entry

  October 11, 2013

   Ok, for the noter who suggested I leave if Laurie's making me miserable. First off, it's not that simple. Not for me, anyway. When she's NOT doped up, we have an ability to enjoy each other quite a lot. What that last entry was.....Yes, of course, I was angry, but I wonder if anyone realize...

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• Will my stroke be tonight?

  October 11, 2013

  I am one pissed off motherfucker! That stupid doper bitch I'm married to has done it AGAIN. She's on 37mcg of Fentanyl, and STILL she dopes herself up with the goddamned motherfucking hydrocodone. I'm so fucking SICK of this BULLSHIT!   Does she EVER consider anyone besides her own godd...

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• Couldn’t say it better than I did on Facebook…

  September 25, 2013

  You know, the Baby Boomers were brought up with the idea that if you work hard and pay your dues, you can retire and live a happy life, do what you want when you want...at least that's what I always gathered from listening to them. So you can imagine how much I DETEST that their…

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• Very scared

  September 23, 2013

  Now, when things seem to be improving between Wayne and me...after soooo long a time of waiting and begging God for it.....things are getting worse and worse for him, and I am really scared. Last time I made peace with a father, he died shortly thereafter. I don't want that to happen again.  

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• A survey before dying….ok, I’m not dying

  September 21, 2013

   1. Most comforting place, smell, sound and memory?   Any time with my family. I am particularly fond of baby smells, but I love the perfumed lotions old women used to wear, too.   Sound - my Nanny's wind chime and any music boxes, though they make me cry   Memory - tons of th...

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• RANT AND RAVE

  September 18, 2013

  Goddamn, goddamn, godDAMN the politics in family situations! Little sister cries like a bitch when I do something just for Laurie or just for Laurie and me, then turns around and TELLS MY mother...mine, mind you...that she gets to cook for everybody tonight. Guess who wasn't included in "eve...

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