1st year in High School

 I am in depression. Not good. I am doing bad and I am not in mood to do anything different to sleeping or lying in my bed. I wish I could do anything about that. I feel like I am falling down, down and down. And that it's getting harder to come back every day. …

 I am doing really bad. Last week everything started getting worse. I have problems with breathing and I am in pain. I am walking around really sad and nothing makes me smile. It's bad. It's really bad.  There is no cure. I am crying. Nothing helps me. If I could I would stay in my…

 Well. It's 10:47AM and I should be at school now. But I am there. In my bed. In my room. Listening to Classic Alternative Rock Radio and thinking about last night... Actually about few last nights. About my weight and the way I look like. About my life and my boyfriend. I have a lot…

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I am doing really bad. I have stomach ache all day long.  I got terrible pain at Polish (about 9:30AM) and thought 'My kidneys' so at break went to WC. Nothing. 'Not kidneys?!'.  Then I was dying at Economics and decided that I won't survive next 4 lessons without seeing nurse. Then I r...

So I have just watched 'The Butterfly Circus' movie on YouTube. And I was crying. And I am still crying. I just don't know what to say. This film is one of my favourite films. Next to '65 Red Roses'. I am crying. I am amazed. I am just shocked. I feel like I have…

 I have just come back from school. Yeahhh. First day after two-week-long winter holidays.  Everything started pretty well.  I woke up at 7:20AM. Made my bed. Eat breakfast, prepared lunch and packed it. Bathroom. Then put some clothes on and did 'make up no make up'. And went out....

 I try to be strong. Really. But sometimes everything goes wrong... But easy. I am strong Polish girl! We are strong. We don't cry. hahaha!  I cry a lot. XD  So it's Saturday evening 11:30PM. Maciek left my room at 8PM. And I feel so lonely. But he was there with me for almost four...

Hi. I just felt like I need to write something... somewhere... And I decided to came to OD. Like I used to before.  I am doing bad. Or maybe not so bad, because I am doing pretty good. But... I had weighting today in the morning. And it's 46.2 kg. -.-'  On Friday it was…

 Hi, I had some problems with my laptop recently and I needed to delete everything and instal it again. pff... It took me whole day.  But I have my conection with internet again and I am so happy about that.  I don't know how long I will be able to write there often. On Monday…