Yes, I do.

Hi.
There is lot of changes since I have written there last time…
Maybe some of you know what’s happened.
So on our class Christmas Eve, Maciek asked me about going out/being in relationship.
Yesterday he asked me before 1st lesson:
-Hi.
-Hello
-Did you think about my idea?
-Yeap
-And?
-You should be happy.
-Really?
-Yes
He was so so happy.
I have never seen him as happy as this time when I told him "Yes".
Never.
Really.
And I became really happy, because now I can come to him and just hug him so strong.
I know it’s crazy, but I need it.
I feel great when he hugs me, or hold my hand.
We spend the whole school day together…
Cuz after school I needed came back to home because I felt really bad.
And I hasn’t change until now.

🙁
My backbone hurts me too much.
I have problems with breathing.
And I am so scared,
Because I wanna spend New Year’s Eve with my friends.
Not in hospital.
Last year I couldn’t go anywhere because I felt bad.
This year I wanna have fun!

But again. I’ll have to be really careful.
I’ll need to bring all my pills and those stuffs with myself.
I just hope I won’t need to take them.
I am afraid.
I feel so bad.
Mucus gets out of my nose and lungs…
I hate it.
I suffocate.
I really don’t like it.
Hate it.
Wanna change it.
But can’t.

I try to focus on another things.
Like my boyfriend.
Or Christmas…
But it’s difficult.

Yeah!
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve!
I can’t wait.
My family from Warsaw is coming!
How much I miss them!
I am going to take lot of pics and then publish them.

But now I have to go.

Love You all!
<3

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Mood:
Pic: with Maciek, St. Claus day at school
Music: Hold My Hand – Michael Jackson & Akon