Bittersweet Heartbreak

So…last night we went on our surprise date, and she loved it, I like doing it for her too, and part of me thought, why am I leaving her when she’s like this? Why am I leaving her when I love her so much? Then I realised, hang on, she’s not always like this though; she’s RARELY like this, but enough, it’s a nice memory of what once were. Bittersweet.

I still  don’t feel well, it’s my nerves I think. Not good, however, I’m not going to be off for 6 months with it. I refuse.