#borderlinepersonalitydisorder

I will never give you the satisfaction of knowing what you did to me. From Day 1 I kept telling you no. We were better friends because I KNEW you would never change. You convinced and took over my life. We had an agreement that YOU broke! How dare you!? Who do you think you…

Mental health office called again. Pushing me to find another doctor. It just reassures how I feel unwanted and too much of a "hassle" to deal with. Yesterday was his court date, I haven't heard back from the DA office on what happened. I can sit here and say I don't care but I do.…

What is "home"? When I think of my home, I don't think of one at all. For 10 years, I had a home. One I built for my son and busted my ass for. I left it and although I could have always came back, it wasn't the same. It doesn't feel like my home…

Since we got back from our vacation I have been feeling so many emotions at once. I'm happy but sad. I love someone but I hate someone. I absolutely hate how I feel. It actually happens all the time honestly. And some times it's not even like a "flip of the switch". I literally feel…

Will I ever be the one? I didn’t think I was going to end up writing this weekend. My son, my boyfriend, and I went up north to a campsite with my boyfriends entire family. Extended too. Although my son did act up and disappear a few times, everything was going pretty good. My boyfriend…

That’s so true! Sleep is for the peaceful mind. The wicked never sleep! WHELP, that’s because our brains never shut the fuck up. Here is a rendition of my bedtime… oh I’m sleepy let me lay down… oh let’s cuddle… well this is boring and I hate this show so let me roll over because…

I’m not sure why, but I find myself not being able to look directly outside through the window. It’s blue and grey, and quite gorgeous as the world wakes up. I’ve been awake since 5:12 a.m. myself. I’m reading a book I don’t remember the name of, but it inspires me to type out my…

These are images of my self destruction  first image was of me contemplating cutting myself  superficial cuts cuz i was down and not thinking clearly. 2nd picture was taken about an hour later as I impulsively cut myself too deep for comfort. Third pic was taken while I was on the phone after cal...

When I first moved here, I fought with depression for the first time. I didn't see my previous highs and lows as an issue since they were brushed off as "hormones" by my family.  I didn't understand why I was depressed, so I started seeing a therapist. I went for months. I talked and talked.…