#breakups

I called my mom today and cried to her. We talked about heartbreak and the feeling of inadequacy. I told her how much the last month had been weighing down on me; how things at work weren't going well, I was was struggling to sleep because of my depression and PTSD and how every time…

For weeks I have been crying every day, but today, more than ever, I feel alone and defeated. DEFEATED is the right word and it is also painful. To make things worse, my tooth broke! Now I am laughing, but I guess is despair. I don't know from where to start. Maybe from the beginning.…

Hey there. Forgot about this place. I wrote one entry four years ago on this new account, and then life got in the way, as it is wont to do. I suppose I said what needed to be said at the time. In the past, I've just come here when Nicola springs to mind. I…

I keep waiting for apologies that will never come. I realize that an addict's mind is just... well it just doesn't remember things right. He doesn't even understand what I'm so upset about. I don't even think he remembers the conversation we had about breaking up. So I'm just... ignoring him, bec...

In my last entry, I mentioned my relationship and at that time I was working through projections. Things did get better momentarily. I have some pretty significant milestones coming up in the next 5 weeks: My birthday, turning 38 One year since I started dating One year since the Divorce was fina...

its been a day and you're all i can think about. you were my everything. you still are. i created so many fond memories with you. i told my family about, even my grandparents and you did the same. where did we go wrong? i know we are young, i know we have many years…

Today has been a difficult day. I feel like I am a hollow person and what was of me is fading away. After getting to work this morning, I logged into the joint account that I share with my husband. I noticed that he paid over $1,500.00 on his credit card gut only added $400.00…

This is the strangest thing. Me and my boyfriend are on the rocks. I'm resisting the bottle of vodka sitting on the table in front of me, which perhaps represents some kind of personal growth, and instead messaged a guy I knew years ago who still rattles into my head at times like this. Nothing&h...

Three weeks ago, my engagement ended. Her name was Sarah and I've known her since 4th grade. It wasn't until 8th grade where I started to fall for her. That summer, we spent time talking on the phone. I had a giant crush on her, but not having the guts to tell her that, I…

It's like after I hurt you I couldn't come back from that. Now everything's so serious. I just want to lie on the couch and watch a movie with you. It's okay though, I think I need to let you go... and hope that you'll come back like before this ever happened.