#dad

I called my mom today and cried to her. We talked about heartbreak and the feeling of inadequacy. I told her how much the last month had been weighing down on me; how things at work weren't going well, I was was struggling to sleep because of my depression and PTSD and how every time…

My dad died. Months ago, back in June - I was there, I held his hand.  My sister and I were with him pretty much 24/7 for his last 10 days, then when his breathing changed I knew.  The carers in the nursing home had explained what would happen.  My sister had just drifted off…

As the title suggests, I'm new to Open Diary. I've been using writing as a form of therapy for years. It usually doesn't matter what I write as long as I start writing something. Eventually I'll end up telling a story from my past or sharing my hopes and dreams for the future.   The…

I was merely 16 y/o when dad passed away. Although I’ve never questioned God why, there have been moments in my life were I have missed him so much. I wonder how different life could have been with him alive. I question myself if he would be proud of me. What things sarcastically would he…

I wish I loved him. I also wish I had an actual relationship with him. he has been in pain recently & I don't know I just feel bad... I often wonder how im going to feel once he dies. I don't think id be sad but I would freeze. my relationship with him started…

This entry was most likely written on July 23rd 2006. It is not very long, but tough... So, I guess it's hard to introduce this person who was a huge part of my life without any context, so I will take some time to explain about my Step Father Steve and at the same time…

I try to visit my family at least twice a month if not more.  It’s difficult to visit when dad is an abusive ass. He still insults, makes fun of you, and really gets under my skin. His negative energy and the anger I have towards him for being so physically abusive in the past.…

"I stopped loving my father a long time ago. What remained was the slavery to a pattern." --Anais Nin I was terrified of making people mad until about 4 months ago...stick with me...or don't, it's your life 💁 As a child I was meek but social. My dad left us when I was 4 and my…