#lies

12/20023 Dear ____________,  I want to apologize for overreacting.  It was not needed. I'm embarrassed, humiliated, ashamed and more. I know, I was in the wrong in how I responded.  I'm sorry. I don't know where we go from here. Im I I feel all I do is hurt you, I don't know. If this…

To contact or Not to contact My darling, I know to others you believe you are not wanted. Perhaps my wanting you enables the other woman. It probably does. It is the lies that are most hard to deal with. You call me out on everything and remember everything I've ever done, yet claim no…

Exploitive relationships create trauma bonds. These occur when a victim bonds with someone who is destructive to them. Similarly, adult survivors of abusive and dysfunctional families struggle with bonds that are rooted in their own trauma experiences. To be loyal to that which does not work - or...

Stand in your truth! https://open.spotify.com/episode/1oBNQHAjeKC8QvFRaiMbA5?si=Qu6pSBE5RSSxZzl1xvsj4g https://open.spotify.com/show/1mDskGclElDo0TYqDPkoWs?si=Ufhj_fvyTbaBVQwkeOPpcA

My ex can build computers from scratch, he is smart like that. I don't trust him much; he is emotionally immature and abusive from my perspective; he lies to me. I bought a new computer he has never touched and started a new email. I am not taking any chances that he put spyware on…

"I like that he makes lists!" IL I have been doing a lot of processing and the comments my ex made to me or about on a daily no wonder my brain hurts. If you say these things to your partner, you are an abuser, you need Jesus and an Iron Lobster. Is that what…

What I thought was going to be my biggest trauma, has turned out it was my biggest blessing. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.   Romans 8:28 It was the night before Thanksgiving 2016, I was sitting in the&he...

To rue the day is at least to consider the folly of the choices what brung you to the day in question.  It is a start. But advanced users can look to the future and easily predict so many many things that most accidents are truly negligence, but we all help hide the bodies one…

Ah, its been years since I've journaled. Literally years. Its going to be nice. I need a place for my thoughts, so Im back. My head is a spinning around and my anxiety is high. This man that i allowed to hurt me emotionally, physically and mentally is driving me up the fucking wall with…

When I moved to the southern state, I knew I had a clean start.  I had breath of fresh air, and a new lease on life.  I don't remember much of my first day at my new school, but I do vividly remember my first lie.  I was sitting in my foreign language class, and…