#pain

I can remember not that long ago when I was fine.  I mean, yea, sleeping it off the next four, five, even six to seven days was something we both participated in.  But my wife is not an addict.  See, when I was addicted to pain pills, it was different.  I took them differently, needed them more,&...

After this, I reckon, I will swish then, go to bed. I have nothing to do right now... so.. yeah. As soon as I get my mitts on the card, I'm filling out eBay's checkout form. I have everything except for the card's details. My face is on fire bc of the bad tooth... so…

When I was really writing and filling up Composition notebooks (That I have since thrown away, because I'm stupid) music and some TV shows were what would spark the Creativity within. Songs to this day still speak to me and I will hear something from  during those times and be transported back to...

times up.session done. .but..  I’ve not unravelled, come undone. .darkness engulfs me again, ’til next time. .i hide.i cry inside. .do you see me? .small child butterfly. .Your kaleidoscope eyes.. .I can almost feel your thoughts piercing my veins, seeking, exploring.. .i dont hide. .I’m hidden. ...

Is it possible to miss someone so much it hurts? Even after ending a cycle with them and understanding why your paths are better off separately? Looking back and just having those memories with them so vividly that makes you want to smile [...] Listening to music or looking at someone reminding y...

Has the world given up on love?  Real love.  The kind of love that feels peaceful, serene, and safe.  How is one ever sure that they aren’t making a mistake when they say, I do? I have an idea of what love is, what love should be.  It isn’t something I can put into words. …

When I moved to the southern state, I knew I had a clean start.  I had breath of fresh air, and a new lease on life.  I don't remember much of my first day at my new school, but I do vividly remember my first lie.  I was sitting in my foreign language class, and…

Where to begin?  In short, I am your average gay guy, trying to stumble his way through life.  At length, I am a pathological liar that was caught in his lies, and ruined every single relationship he had.  I admit it, I'm the bad guy.  The guy that played on other people's emotions to gain…

Letting go of... Everything that happend this year i just constantly felt empty and angry some days when i just wanted to feel something i would hurt myself because if i wasn’t hurting myself i was hurting everyone around me. And if i wasn’t feeling angry i was feeling so sad most days i would&he...

I'm at this place that I don't understand. I mean, my rational mind understands it. I'm a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. I do feelings and thoughts for a living. I know all about the grieving process and processing loss and using coping skills. I know how to say things to make everyone feel bet...