#struggle

My first diagnosis when I was 15 was Tourette’s syndrome. I used to get into so much trouble from my step mom for sniffing too much. Not sniffing drugs but just having the sniffles. I was unaware I was even doing it but I would later learn it was due to Tourette’s and was worse…

So last night I was thinking to myself and about how many attempts were made to quit cigarette throughout the years and I have came up with this idea of gifting myself the accomplishment of quitting cigarettes ! And so , the idea came about again this time around. Here is my logic to this....&hel...

Day 2 without nicotine, So yesterday there was a constant reminder like a bell ever 5 seconds *ding (cigarette) ..... *ding (cigarette) ..... *ding (cigarette)  Today feels different, occasional craving for nicotine here and there but that crave feeling is just not as consistent as yesterday . Li...

  Kill Switch is the term that popped in my head when I was thinking about what to title my first piece to my first blog ever. You might be asking, why 'Kill Switch'. This phrase, to me, represents the switch I flipped starting the kill of nicotine in my body... Yes I am addicted…

I've been mostly up since 4:30 this morning, on my day off. Bella kept trying to wake up, so I tried my hardest to stay in bed, despite needing to get up to use the restroom. Darryl moving around to get ready for work probably didn't help. Eventually I couldn't wait anymore and quietly got…

i tried to quit smoking but then I had a craving 24 hours later. So I made a new vow, don’t buy any more weed. So I started smoking socially....I ended up driving a total of 20 miles just to smoke with a male friend who later send me a sexual text. I also spent…

Oh Diary, how I have missed you.  Oh, there were attempts to keep in touch, apps, books, notes, blogs.... but no one I loved as much as you.  No one who I wanted to talk to as much.  Silly, probably, but hey, when you tell someone your secrets, even if you erase some so no…

When I signed up using my email address it was for my other, private diary. I even have the email with the diary name, so I know for a fact it was my other diary, but somehow my main diary wound up connected to it. I have no idea how, but I'm glad. My other…