#struggle

It was just a regular resting day yesterday. Things were very quiet. I didn't do much other than relax and try to think of how I'm going to tackle my current challenges and get back on my feet.  I most certainly need divine intervention because there's no way I can get out of it on…

Here I sit…. Just found this site and not even really sure how it works. So…….  Lets begin I feel mixed feelings on life,  where, how , whats next…. All of it So stand by…. As i un-ef my thoughts we will continue thanks for lookin

2/17 Friday Why does everything feel so heavy? It's not even that deep. He's going away to make money, but he'll come back for me... Right? And when he's gone, I'll finally have my "Emily in Paris" moment that I've wanted for so long. Right? I could move, I could record music, I could grow.…

My first diagnosis when I was 15 was Tourette’s syndrome. I used to get into so much trouble from my step mom for sniffing too much. Not sniffing drugs but just having the sniffles. I was unaware I was even doing it but I would later learn it was due to Tourette’s and was worse…

So last night I was thinking to myself and about how many attempts were made to quit cigarette throughout the years and I have came up with this idea of gifting myself the accomplishment of quitting cigarettes ! And so , the idea came about again this time around. Here is my logic to this....&hel...

Day 2 without nicotine, So yesterday there was a constant reminder like a bell ever 5 seconds *ding (cigarette) ..... *ding (cigarette) ..... *ding (cigarette)  Today feels different, occasional craving for nicotine here and there but that crave feeling is just not as consistent as yesterday . Li...

  Kill Switch is the term that popped in my head when I was thinking about what to title my first piece to my first blog ever. You might be asking, why 'Kill Switch'. This phrase, to me, represents the switch I flipped starting the kill of nicotine in my body... Yes I am addicted…

I've been mostly up since 4:30 this morning, on my day off. Bella kept trying to wake up, so I tried my hardest to stay in bed, despite needing to get up to use the restroom. Darryl moving around to get ready for work probably didn't help. Eventually I couldn't wait anymore and quietly got…

Oh Diary, how I have missed you.  Oh, there were attempts to keep in touch, apps, books, notes, blogs.... but no one I loved as much as you.  No one who I wanted to talk to as much.  Silly, probably, but hey, when you tell someone your secrets, even if you erase some so no…

When I signed up using my email address it was for my other, private diary. I even have the email with the diary name, so I know for a fact it was my other diary, but somehow my main diary wound up connected to it. I have no idea how, but I'm glad. My other…