heartbreaking decisions
Everyone says she didn’t love me the way I deserved to be loved.
Everyone says she didn’t deserve me. That she wasn’t there for me the way I needed.
Maybe they’re right.
Maybe, even if she decides to come back, as we have said might happen (despite divorce), maybe I should move on.
Maybe I shouldn’t wait till she decides.
It hurts me to walk away. I gave my heart to her and I would do anything to make it work.
But SHE has decided this, not me. And why should I wait around, alone, and probably be left to dust? …Not supported the way I need. Not loved the way I need…
I hate that I have to make this decision. I am so unstable right now.
I went grocery shopping last night for the first time since late March. It was a win win. Lost 12 pounds and saved money. Depression is sure a bitch though.
Why do I feel like I need her in my life? Why can’t I let go?
Hugs!! I know how you feel. Always torn about things because you love them so much, even if they’ve hurt you bad!!
@sweet-n-simple It’s so true. It’s like yes I’m hurt but I just want the love to return. I’m too quick to forgive.
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Maybe now you can work on you and get you to a place where you can be happy and then have someone who actually loves and wants you? It took me a lot of years to do that but the wait is well worth it.
@jaythesmartone You’re right. I thought I had done that, but I guess not. And even so, if I did, I guess she didn’t love me the way I needed. I need to be patient with myself and love myself through this.
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They say the ones we love the most hurts us the most, it’s so true. Even though it won’t be easy you just have to take the time to move on the best you can.
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