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How do learn to love again? After you married someone who didn't know how to love you. How do trust again? After you rekindle a fire with a man who lays you down and tells you he wants a life with you, but then he goes home to a family that you thought he'd separated…

This Morning: I was super emotional this morning. I listened to "Cut the Line" by Papa Roach a couple of times, then moved onto "The Ending" also by them. I couldn't sing along to that song without tears and my voice breaking up. I'm realizing how much of an emotional guy I am to the…

In my last entry, I mentioned my relationship and at that time I was working through projections. Things did get better momentarily. I have some pretty significant milestones coming up in the next 5 weeks: My birthday, turning 38 One year since I started dating One year since the Divorce was fina...

The story I will be sharing is one filled with shame and regret. It's also a story of love and sacrifice. This is my story, a tale of events that have transpired woefully, in and out of my favor for the last 3 years. Summer of 2019. I was accepted into a nursing program. Well,…

Projection is a phenomenon that happens all the time and seems to rarely be discussed. It takes place in many different forms. From my current perspective it is a fundamental issue in all relationships. I'm hoping this entry gains enough visibility to generate some introspection. In our various f...

Tonight, has been radio silent.  For the first time, there have been no calls or text from you. This "new normal" will take some time to get used to. But I can't help but to wonder. I can't help but to still care, somehow. After all the things you've done to me, I still love…

I'm 28 years old and today my mom messaged me and 5 of my other siblings that her and my dad are separating. They've been together for 32 years. I received the text as I was pulling in to get my daughter from school. The first thing she wrote was,"I didn't want to text this…

My therapist said I should start journaling, so here I am. It feels like Covid really fucked everything up, but maybe it was just a catalyst for the inevitable. We started off so happy, but now neither one of us can say anything. How did we get to this place, how did we become what…

Today is two months since my husband decided he wants a divorce, walks in from work and boom...Idk what to think really we would be married 5 years this November, part of me felt relived because it meant i didn't have to keep wondering if i was good enough or did he love me or…

Hello again old friend! I haven't seen you in quite some time! It's ironic and fitting that I used this title on my last entry all those years ago. So much has changed.  I probably should start writing here again, it would be good therapy.  Goodness knows I have a lot of things on my…