#divorce

Why do I care? I don’t know exactly how this site works but I just want to get these thoughts out and maybe someone else has experienced this. I was married to my high school sweetheart for 19 years. He abused me for years but I stayed in some codependency state I suppose looking back…

How do learn to love again? After you married someone who didn't know how to love you. How do trust again? After you rekindle a fire with a man who lays you down and tells you he wants a life with you, but then he goes home to a family that you thought he'd separated…

This Morning: I was super emotional this morning. I listened to "Cut the Line" by Papa Roach a couple of times, then moved onto "The Ending" also by them. I couldn't sing along to that song without tears and my voice breaking up. I'm realizing how much of an emotional guy I am to the…

In my last entry, I mentioned my relationship and at that time I was working through projections. Things did get better momentarily. I have some pretty significant milestones coming up in the next 5 weeks: My birthday, turning 38 One year since I started dating One year since the Divorce was fina...

The story I will be sharing is one filled with shame and regret. It's also a story of love and sacrifice. This is my story, a tale of events that have transpired woefully, in and out of my favor for the last 3 years. Summer of 2019. I was accepted into a nursing program. Well,…

Projection is a phenomenon that happens all the time and seems to rarely be discussed. It takes place in many different forms. From my current perspective it is a fundamental issue in all relationships. I'm hoping this entry gains enough visibility to generate some introspection. In our various f...

Turtle Doves  There are 13 species belonging to the genus Streptopelia. Four have common names that name them as turtle doves. While each species of dove has unique characteristics, collectively they share many traits that determine breeding, behavior, and appearance. Turtle doves are monogamous ...

A good tree produces good fruit, and a bad tree produces bad fruit. 7 days away from the 17th and I will no longer be legally married. I have not been married in my heart ever really. I have always been a wife but never really had a husband. That is my perspective anyway. A…

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My Iron Lobster is now a Spotify playlist too. 9 more days and the dissolution will be final, taking back my innocence, legally. I am keeping my married name for my daughter and because that is a lot of paperwork; Ill change it when I remarry. My Aunt has been away out of state, she…