#divorce

I will leave My heart at the door I won’t say a word They’ve all been said before, you know So why don’t we Just play pretend Like we’re not scared of what is coming next Or scared of having nothing left Look, don’t get me wrong I know there is no tomorrow All I…

You didn’t even give things a chance to turn around.  You just gave up.  Why?  Why can’t you tell me?  How am I supposed to move on with my life without knowing why you couldn’t love me, why you were too weak to choose me? I hate you today and I feel justified in that. …

Fuck you. I swore to myself that would never be something I would say to you with any serious meaning behind it, and I guess since you'll never read this, I've kept my promise.  But seriously, fuck you.  How could you do this to me?  To our families?  How could you string me along for…

Once again I have let far too much time pass between entries in this old friend of mine.  Much has changed since my last entry.  Our divorce paperwork was filed May 25, so by August 26 it will be final.  We should be notified by early September.  There are still days when I can't believe…

These last 2 months have been a whirlwind of sadness, anger and ultimately, acceptance. By the end of next week, Joe and I will have filed for divorce.  And by the middle of September, it will be final and I will no longer be a wife.  I will no longer have a home of my…

Today is Thursday and our Thursdays are now visitation days as opposed to our Saturdays. I usually dread them but now they're becoming our new normal,rapidly. It happened for me sooner on some things than others, but this one feels like the last big one for awhile. When we get to HippeKid's first...

Spewing of random ahead.... be prepared. According to my calculations, I need to make a minimum of $17 dollars an hour to cover all expenses and bills, adding a car payment, insurance, gas, and cell phone. What in the actual fuck. Do you know how much they're out here trying to pay people with de...

Three weeks ago, my husband of nearly 10 years,left. It was a shock but not a surprise. Truth be told, we should have never been a permanent thing, let alone last as long as we did. I am doing well, though overwhelmed as more and more things come to my attention that I need to…

Oh Diary, how I have missed you.  Oh, there were attempts to keep in touch, apps, books, notes, blogs.... but no one I loved as much as you.  No one who I wanted to talk to as much.  Silly, probably, but hey, when you tell someone your secrets, even if you erase some so no…

Location:  the kitchen Mood:  confused and angry Listening to:  SuperWhy on PBSkids Every time I think I've come to some sort of decision regarding Aaron, something pops up that makes me question the whole situation all over again.  Aaron lost his job on Friday.  For stea...