"No one is useless in the world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
We have all had times where we feel lost or alone. In this place, you can be supported by other Open Diary members who may have had a similar experience. The anonymity of our site allows you to open your heart and express your true feelings.
You Are Not Alone Circle
Upcoming IVF Cycle – alone now. New Foster Possibility.
Somedays are a struggle. I lied - A lot of days are struggle. I saw a random quote scrolling Facebook today - "There comes a point where you no longer care if there's a light at the end of the tunnel or not. You're just sick of the tunnel." I'm SO sick of this damn…
EX-MIL strikes again. Of course.
Sometimes, the little things in life really hurt. Things you thought you were over, but they just resurface every so often. Maybe to see if they can pick the scab off, make that old wound sting just a little. I'm tired - Tired of holding my damn head up and being the bigger person. Tired…
IVF Ramblings – Foster Son Going Home
It's one of those days. I have a lot of "those days" lately it seems. If you could earn money for crying I'd be rich. Literally. Yet, I keep a smile on. I pretend life is f'ing fabulous. It's not fabulous. It's downright shitty and unfair. It's frustrating to always have to work my ass…
Next Retrieval – Early June. M – Going Home.
2023 seems to be flying by. Far too fast. Way too many ups and downs. It's slightly a train wreck, slightly amazing, largely uneventful. All into one? IVF related - We're gearing up for the next round. I emailed our clinic and we're good to go. Nothing left to do. I just need to reply…
The Usual Frustration
I’m in just an awful, crabby, annoyed mood. Doesn’t make much. Yet it takes a lot. If that makes any sense. Ultimately, I’ve got to figure out how to quit letting Max’s unhealthy family get to me. Quit letting his and their behavior turn me into a bitter asshole. Yet, it’s hard as they constantly...
Feeling alone
I feel alone, don't really have friends, I don't have family and the one person that was a real friend I hurt them so here I am alone. Will I really just end up alone for the way that I treat the people closest to me? Why? I'm just really dislike myself and I'm disappointed…
Focus is everything
You don't have the life you want, you have the life that you focus on. Something that Tony Robbins would say, more eloquently. It is easy to understand, like many of the things he teaches. But why do I have so much problem incorporating what he says? Everything seems so easy, simple, doable - eve...
March Budget Complete – April Next.
Well, it's basically April. Which means my March budget is complete. Did I reach my goals? Kind of. Sort of. Yes. No. I wanted to save another $1K to end at a total of $5K but had thought getting to $6K would be a bonus. Sadly, no $6K - But I hit my original (and…
Friendship
March 30, 2023 I dont know what to feel, i know its all my fault that i break my friends trust on me. I admit it and yea saying sorry is not enough, so what should i do now? i know i did my part to fix it. Its also hard to me to see…
Stye in my eye
These things are soooo annoying and painful. I never knew. I never had it until now. I had Lasik surgery few months back and now all of a sudden I got this painful shit and it is killing me. Of course, this happens when I have to travel for work, and it is sometimes so…