I don’t know how I became so lost, so troubled, so f*cked up. I’m 19 years old, and my life has been crumbling for so long but without the effort to put it back together again, I have fallen down into a rabbit hole. Depression, Anxiety, Panic disorder, eating disorder, self harm, commitment issues but feeling so lonely. Being in a relationship that I don’t even care about while the real love of my life is moving to another country. Missing all my friends and family after making the choice to move to another city because ‘maybe I can live a better life here’. I need to stop being so greedy for more and just accept this is all I can get. I don’t know what I’m doing, what I’m living for, where I want to be or where I truly am in life… I’m so lost and I don’t know where to start to pull everything back together and heal.