Recent Entries

• sinus tachycardia

  May 5, 2024

  Recently, one of the lab results I've got shows that I have sinus tachycardia. I haven't had time to consult the doctor just yet to have it interpreted. I did another lab test and the lady doing the test for 2DEcho said I have a faster than normal heart rate too. I am not certain…

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• The Waves

  May 4, 2024

  I am certain that you will never see this entry as you were never fond of online journals, and even if you come across this one by any chance, you still won't know as I will make it anonymous even if it is dedicated for you. We have been through ups and downs, you're like…

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• this freakin Heart

  April 30, 2024

  Stress is part of my work but I have not observed anything new that would trigger this. Squeezing chest pain, it hurts like hell. It isn't constant and I've taken a few meds that are not prescribed to me, it was for my Dad who has a heart condition. They do work but mostly temporarily,…

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• Music Vibes & a bit of hope

  April 30, 2024

  I am playing random music at the moment, I don't feel sad but I don't feel fulfilled either. I wondered.. if most people listen to music they can relate to or to a song they want to dedicate to someone. I think my reason is different, I listen to music where I imagine someone dedicating…

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• Eclipse

  April 13, 2024

  I know..I am just posting now. I wonder how the eclipse day went for others. I used to believe that it should be nothing, but for me, there was just too much emotional turmoil that day. I fought with 2 people I was not expecting to have an argument with. Seems like the stroke of…

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• “give someone a hand and they’ll take your whole arm”

  March 18, 2024

  So why am I here? Many reasons... but my reason is the same and has become more solid and yes it took me years to come to this understanding. It is because if you share your thoughts with people, 90% of the time they will have an opposing opinion, they will take it negatively, they…

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• Equality.Sure.

  March 14, 2024

  This entry was in my draft for days now. I just discovered that a colleague of mine is deliberately sending off his tasks to my inbox. I reported it to our manager and the manager said that it was already brought up to the boss before. The manager also mentioned that the boss prefers employees&he...

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• Room Change

  March 9, 2024

  I didn't think a slight change in my room would make a change. My room is like two connected bedrooms in terms of size by the way, it is because the room adjacent to mine used to be my dad's office, but since he never used it as much, they decided to break the wall…

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• No to sunshine

  March 2, 2024

  Early morning and I am pissed off again PISSED OFF I have plans for today which were already mapped out in my Calendar since last week but I got out of the mood. It's so hot in my room and the sun is shining so bright and nothing is here to shade my room at…

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