#loss

I spent the last week bouncing back-and-forth between Bakersfield Los Angeles, as I attempted to get some of the last things that I had at the house. I didn’t want to run into my partner, he’s an alcoholic and… I can’t even begin to describe that situation and you could only understand it if you&...

Tolu died. I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel about it. Guilty that I barely liked her or talked to her? Worried about who the next one’s going to be? mostly I’m just worried about getting a summer job.

... and tonight I'm drowning... I want to be happy... but I don't know how to fix myself. I've learned to sit with my feelings and hurt for a while and then move on when they are over, but lately it seems like there are too many and I'm not better off than months ago.…

I just did my audition. I had the same reader from a previous, disastrous audition. I don’t like him much. I remember I asked his opinion on my audition. And his response was, “um, you didn’t pay for coaching so I cannot comment.” I didn’t asked him for coaching; I just asked if he liked…

My sister died today. I always knew this day would come as she struggled with addiction for as long as I can remember. Guilt sets in as I’ve lived a better life, had it easier, was the baby and our dads favorite. (Same dad different moms). When I received the news I cried out as…

Weight reduction is difficult - this assertion will most likely resound to a many individuals who have been battling for quite a long time to shed a couple of pounds or a decent piece of weight. That, yet whenever you have lost the weight, how would you intend to keep up with it? Counts calories&...

Think it's too late to change your body once you're over 50? Think again. In October, 73-year-old Joan  MacDonald became an internet inspiration after showing off her incredible transformation. "For many decades, I was more often overweight than at a healthy weight," MacDonald told The Daily Mail...

I find it strange that I am back to using Open Diary. It was over 18 years (I think?) ago back when I was in junior of high school when I was using it constantly. It first started as a joke, then developed as a tool for expression and escapism from the trials of teenage…

I know I mentioned now previous post that I have had 2 miscarriages now and appear to be unable to have children, and the theme of children has been weighing so heavily on my mind. On the 2nd miscarriage, I didn’t find out until I was in the doctor’s office at my 10 week ultrasound.…