#recovery

7:25am  Clarence is watching cartoons right now. I don't know why but when Dan left for work today I was a little relieved. We don't have any issues i'm not mad at him or anything.    8:39am   Im having pretzel pieces for breakfast. We're running really low on food again. We never have enoug...

I never really know what to title these entries. Originally it was going to be "the back story" but then i don't feel like i want to go back and re-write all of it. I'm kind of sick of writing about him, thinking about everything thats happened, feeling stuck. I think yesterday was the last…

I guess i dont really know why i decided to go "public" with my diary entries. Part of it was due to laziness i know that... handwriting takes a lot more effort! A bit about me - I've always journalled from a young age. I guess it was a way for me to express how…

Hello Everyone,             Well for starters I would like to take a brief moment and introduce myself!  My name is Patsy, I turned 37 years old yesterday (8/29/1984) woot woot Virgo! I have been at war within myself and battling my own demons on top of soul wrenching, body crippling,…

Looking for room, somewhat desperate, almost willing to share a studio with two others. Looking for validation perhaps. Looking for a way in. thinking about the new neighbors in apt. # 7 saw them through the window once and they seemed excited to be in a new place. Thinking about how old they are...

First entry. New too this. But here we go. In November,  I had laparoscopic surgery. For those who don’t know, laparoscopic surgery is a type of surgery that checks for problems in the abdomen or a woman's reproductive system. Laparoscopy helps diagnose and treat problems in the reproductive orga...

Dear Universe, I used to frequent this site, many moons ago, in the early 2000s, as a teenager. I cannot recall my username; therefore I have less to cringe at. Now I am in my 30s. I think I need to make this journal part of my journey, my therapy. Yesterday I underwent an assessment…

This recovery is long  I feel like I haven’t  moved from this bedroom in a decade or two  Grasping the doorknob with White knuckled intentions, personal sabotage  planned before my curfew   Impatient for the day  my feet agree  to run, we risk scaling the walls  just to see and feel sun. I s...

I spent a couple of hours reading my old diary last night. I was on here for many years...and didn't realise the site had been revitalised. Found my old diary and reading it was pretty tragic. Broke down in tears today feeling so much pain for the poor girl who lost so many years of…

Happy Christmas Eve everyone! If you want to help me in my journey please check this video out and subscribe to my youtube channel for more vlogging fun. https://youtu.be/IcwxqkPmCW4 ANYWAYS. I feel much better today, I've been somewhat depressed lately and I know things are going to work out. It...