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 Today has gone better maybe.  Samara got me a silly dancing flower for my van. It is so stupid that it should make me smile but it did.  We went to therapy, and I talked to her OT. It turns out her OTs are getting married to each other. When she found out she said…

 The weekend was good. I went to a homeschool event which was interesting.  I learned a few things there. In my area I am a bit odd to homeschooling, like I wear pants and I plan to teach evolution as well as creationism, but not for like 10 years and thus I don't see the…

We all know it's mother's day but it is also a little known date in my life as well. It so happens to be my ten year anniversary with OD!   Quiet possibly my longest relationsip I have ever had I am still in love with Diary. Moreso now than I think I was then.…

     The semester is over and I am on summer vaccation. Samara has school through next week. My gpa took a hit this semester. It is now a 3.75. So low... The semester gpa wqas 3.5. Ughhh... What has happened to my brain? I used to be smarter. I know what happened, two babies…

 Travis forgot our anniversary, I was upset, I know things aren't that fantastic, but I would like for him to aknowledge the day some. He didn't the next day he remembered, and the guys at the vet center made him bring me home flowers, they had other suggestions of things to do for me, like&...

 Today is my 8th anniversary with my husband. Husband, such a weird word. A word to describe who is supposed to be my partenr, my friend, the father of my children, and the man i love. Instead it feels weird to call him that. So today I will say I have been married 8 years…

I feel like I am talking lately and no one is listening to what I have to say. It as if anything that comes from my mouth is simply white noise  It is a horrible feeling, and I am not even sure if it is a fair assessment of what is actually happening. I am…

Travis is back to work, Samara had a good morning, Sabastian is sleeping. It has been brought to my attention that I am angry. Am I angry. Yes. Yes I am. About what? A whole lot of things that I can not change.  I don't even know where to start. Maybe I will go more…

*  I took Samara to the park today before therapy. It was a beautiful day and we had time that needed filled between school and speech.  She was playing with other little kids. (can I get a heck ya on that, my little girl playing with other kids!) Well one of the moms comes over…

 I have good news. Travis goes back to work on Monday! Yay! It was about time. For all of us. It will be nice to have more money again, and it will be awesome to have him out of my hair. I hate having hinm around all the stinkin time. I mean he questions why…