#lonely

As the title suggests, I'm new to Open Diary. I've been using writing as a form of therapy for years. It usually doesn't matter what I write as long as I start writing something. Eventually I'll end up telling a story from my past or sharing my hopes and dreams for the future.   The…

Catching up with Lucy Friday, 24th April 2015 Dearest Friend, It's been a while since I've seen Lucy in company! I was delighted that we were able to catch up earlier today. I often think about her while I'm busy at college and wonder how she's keeping. I don't know what it is but when…

I am in my second year of college. This means, of course, that there are inevitable shifts in my friendships and other relationships. The people I used to talk to every day in high school are no longer my closest friends. I have roommates that I talk to all the time, and whom I love.…

I wish someone could save me from emotional pain. I wish someone could realise I am not okay.  I haven't been happy in along time. I am not close with my family or do not have any genuine friends. I think my work contract is coming to an end early because there hasn't been a…

Tonight, has been radio silent.  For the first time, there have been no calls or text from you. This "new normal" will take some time to get used to. But I can't help but to wonder. I can't help but to still care, somehow. After all the things you've done to me, I still love…

Last night I got about 4 hours of sleep. Its something about venting to complete strangers that make me feel comforted. I feel like I am trapped in this body, in this place, in this time and I cannot get out of it all. I lost my dad 4 years ago and my birthday is…

Dear no one, I’ve always believed that what makes my life meaningful are the people that are in it, and that the purpose of life is to love and be loved. On my 21st birthday I learned that I would never have a deep and abiding romantic love. That a partner with whom I could…

Day 1 – Mandatory Self Quarantine   Took me a few days to catch my breath, but i have done a little editing. (mainly grammatical)  WARNING EXPLICIT LANGUAGE BELOW! My therapist wants me to write down my emotions, Personally I do not think that is a good idea,  I know ultimately it’s to get them o...

im not the best at venting or telling people how i feel because it always backfires... for almost 2 years now ive been living with someone ive loved since 2012, we share one kid together and he's my world.. my sons father keeps telling me he doesnt want a relationship but yet i constantly see&hel...

god damn it hurts. it hurts being this alone. most nights I accept that im all alone. I don't let it bother me. but it has been killing me.i have no one. I used to have my sister but she has her own life and dreads even talking to me. I do the same thing…