#lonely

Suddenly I feel like I'm drowning, and I can't get out. There are so many things on my mind, and I'm having a hard time expressing/communicating them. The crazy thing is that it is literally like 5-6 different major topics that would break down into a million little things. I'm not sure which to ...

He left for work today and won't be home for 3 months. I wonder how loud the silence will be.

I don't even know where to start except that it's 3 am and I'm crying in the living room again. I feel so lonely. God I feel so lonely. I get the distinct feeling that my husband doesn't like me very much. We don't connect. If we do, it's literally for like, 3 seconds maybe…

A day to live. To feel the same taste of the morning coffee, to wear flexible clothes and a sport bra. To digest last unsuccessful relationship where  I poured my  words to burry all uncomfortable situations and disrespect. To feel and check upon my kids. To hear some voices outside the window. T...

23:04 have a lot of thoughts and feelings going on. i feel like i don’t have many people. like friends. like yes n is my friend. and then d is n’s boyfriend so that makes us friends. and then there’s a who is their flat mate. so we aren’t really classed as friends. and k…

As the title suggests, I'm new to Open Diary. I've been using writing as a form of therapy for years. It usually doesn't matter what I write as long as I start writing something. Eventually I'll end up telling a story from my past or sharing my hopes and dreams for the future.   The…

Catching up with Lucy Friday, 24th April 2015 Dearest Friend, It's been a while since I've seen Lucy in company! I was delighted that we were able to catch up earlier today. I often think about her while I'm busy at college and wonder how she's keeping. I don't know what it is but when…

I am in my second year of college. This means, of course, that there are inevitable shifts in my friendships and other relationships. The people I used to talk to every day in high school are no longer my closest friends. I have roommates that I talk to all the time, and whom I love.…

I wish someone could save me from emotional pain. I wish someone could realise I am not okay.  I haven't been happy in along time. I am not close with my family or do not have any genuine friends. I think my work contract is coming to an end early because there hasn't been a…

Tonight, has been radio silent.  For the first time, there have been no calls or text from you. This "new normal" will take some time to get used to. But I can't help but to wonder. I can't help but to still care, somehow. After all the things you've done to me, I still love…