#lonely

I thought we were on day three. But honestly can't remember, I'm also so bad with technology I can't find where the old posts are. I'm tragic in so many ways lol. So the depression eased up a bit. Not completely, I can feel it's easy to slip back. But I'm not in a very…

I'm really not doing well. Sometimes I think if it weren't for my dogs I would just give up. It's surprising that I'm not really having a full on breakdown but I realized recently that all my keeping it together is actually a freeze state of depression. Once a sensitive person who easily cried, I...

Now that I’m here, I don’t know what to say. I’m struggling with a disabled partner and child. I love them so much, but I am dying inside a little more every day. I don’t know how much longer I can go on without support.

Suddenly I feel like I'm drowning, and I can't get out. There are so many things on my mind, and I'm having a hard time expressing/communicating them. The crazy thing is that it is literally like 5-6 different major topics that would break down into a million little things. I'm not sure which to ...

He left for work today and won't be home for 3 months. I wonder how loud the silence will be.

I don't even know where to start except that it's 3 am and I'm crying in the living room again. I feel so lonely. God I feel so lonely. I get the distinct feeling that my husband doesn't like me very much. We don't connect. If we do, it's literally for like, 3 seconds maybe…

A day to live. To feel the same taste of the morning coffee, to wear flexible clothes and a sport bra. To digest last unsuccessful relationship where  I poured my  words to burry all uncomfortable situations and disrespect. To feel and check upon my kids. To hear some voices outside the window. T...

23:04 have a lot of thoughts and feelings going on. i feel like i don’t have many people. like friends. like yes n is my friend. and then d is n’s boyfriend so that makes us friends. and then there’s a who is their flat mate. so we aren’t really classed as friends. and k…

As the title suggests, I'm new to Open Diary. I've been using writing as a form of therapy for years. It usually doesn't matter what I write as long as I start writing something. Eventually I'll end up telling a story from my past or sharing my hopes and dreams for the future.   The…

Catching up with Lucy Friday, 24th April 2015 Dearest Friend, It's been a while since I've seen Lucy in company! I was delighted that we were able to catch up earlier today. I often think about her while I'm busy at college and wonder how she's keeping. I don't know what it is but when…