#ptsd

Facebook memories can be a real bitch - but also truth telling and revealing. I had written this and saved it as a private entry on my Facebook on  5/31/2024. From its contents I can assume we had a fight the night/day prior, you had worn me down, and I wrote this - accepting all…

Out of touch with my feelings I can't help it if I'm happy or sad Today I cried for no reason Made me feel like a psychopath I should hate you 'cause I love you You should hate yourself for treating me like that We both know you only love you Did you know they…

You sent her this song.  Followed by a slew of messages talking about how you never wanted to leave her - she didn't want to let you go.  The last time you sent me a song.... I honestly can't remember, maybe never? I know you have come home to play something on YouTube, but to…

Do you remember when we met? I do - it was briefly in 2001, little did I know that the chance meeting would be my future.... I was living in the dorms at EMU, you had come up with my boyfriend to party at the college level.  We were introduced and you weren't thought of…

One month since the affair was exposed. Until you are grieving you don't realize just how long a month can feel.  I felt like I endured a year within a 30-31 day time frame.  There were days when I didn't realize one had passed, sometimes the minutes turned into hours and I couldn't tell you…

I know why the caged bird sings.... -No, I actually don't.  I didn't read the poem - or is it a book. But if I were back in high school English and the essay topic was "Describe what the phrase 'I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings' means and how can it relate to you"…

I find myself asking the question "Why" so often now.  Whether it is aloud, amidst silent sobs, or silently like a broken record controlling my thoughts.... That and "what the fuck" So many times I find myself coming here to type a few words, hit delete, type a few more, delete again - to walk&he...

Did you know there is science behind why we remember certain events? I first learned of this when I was watching "Someone Like You" (Ashley Judd: 2001).  She is meets with a plastic surgeon to discuss having her amygdala removed because she read that it controlled her olfactory sense to associate...

Let me preface by noting I have an inexplicable desire to spell valium like it's in the etymological school of 'vacuum' so I'll occasionally spell it 'valuum.' You get what you pay for around here. Tonight I've been irritable since about 4:30 when I woke up from my nap.  And I haven't been able t...

Good afternoon, loves. Firstly, I would just like to apologise for going MIA for a couple days, quite a lot has happened and I was taking some time to regain myself. The first day I didn't upload was because my laptop decided to break. It was working perfectly fine the night before, I finished on...