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I started this Chapter referencing the end of my 20 year "marriage" and I'm starting with what broke the camels back, what the moment of finality was. I'm working backward. I wish I could say it was one isolated event that led up to this or that it isn't 20 years of build up. 2024 has…

If you choose to follow this chapter, favorite or pin this post. This is the one and only post that is dedicated to my ex and our relationship. He will not be mentioned (unless in scenarios) going further. He is worthy of one entry.  ⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING DISCLAIMER ⚠️ This entry contains vivid desc...

This entry begins the healing and unraveling of a 20 year "marriage"-but as I reflect, it wasn't a marriage, it wasn't a partnership; those require give and take, love and respect, sacrifice, forgiveness, grace....it was a dumpster waiting to combust and catch fire. •Key Players You're Gonna Wann...

No context to be given...aside from these are not in any order, this is a spontaneous collection of what my semi-coherent brain can remember. •Runaway Train-Soul Asylum •Remember When-Alan Jackson •Save Me-Jelly Roll •Watermelon Moonshine-Lainey Wilson •Tim McGraw-Taylor Swift •November Rain-GNR ...

Since I'm just freshly back into the online blogging world, and OD itself. Let's do a semi light hearted entry where y'all get to know me a bit better...So this will be the intro of who I am. I am 41 yo. Its funny because while every year I turn another year older, I still…

It's 11:07pm and Iam currently sitting in bed with a lavender heat pack wrapped around my neck, listening to Bilateral Stimulation music (soft BLS tones), with a true crime documentary eating popping candy. Ive had 2 minor anxiety attacks today, in between my attacks I feel fantastic. calm and re...

I started therapy this week. After a seven year hiatus, prozac is back. Prozac and a slew of diagnosis......PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, Abandonment Issues, Eating Disorder (possibly), Panic Attacks-I swear I'm missing one, or two, or three. Hell I'm not sure. The one thing I know, is I held back t...

Let me preface by noting I have an inexplicable desire to spell valium like it's in the etymological school of 'vacuum' so I'll occasionally spell it 'valuum.' You get what you pay for around here. Tonight I've been irritable since about 4:30 when I woke up from my nap.  And I haven't been able t...

Introduction A. Brief Overview of Low Level Laser Therapy (LLLT) Low Level Laser Therapy, commonly known as LLLT or photobiomodulation, involves the use of low-power lasers or light-emitting diodes (LEDs) to stimulate cellular function and promote healing. The therapy is characterized by its non-...

Oh my goodness. A bad time with 1 random tipsy night. I find OD again. Hello :) This was such a safe space for me when I was younger (omg I sound old lol). I always think of OD and I miss it so much. It was great community back in the day. So much…