#sadness

As the mother and wife in this house there will never be a Birthday party that I didn’t plan and execute. There will never be a Birthday party that I ever truly get to celebrate as I’m too busy ensuring everyone else’s happiness. There will never be a family vacation or weekend trip that I…

It would feel that way when you are just mirroring things back to me. I really am just talking to me. Still sounds better coming from you. The ruminating really hurts my brain. I hope it goes away soon. You really like to push buttons lol. I was talking to that ex of mine one…

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I feel alone most of the time. I feel like most people have bad intentions. I have no true friends. It feels lonely. I get no text messages or calls. If I'm ever in a time of need I don't have anyone to reach out to. I crave friendships and desire  romantic relationship but I'm…

I am so afraid of being hurt that I do not allow myself to trust anything that anyone says. Its a very difficult way of life if i'm honest. I can never allow myself to be close to anyone because they will hurt me. You see,  I stopped believing that people are genuine a long…

I just need to empty out all the bullshit in my head. I’m going through some pretty severe depression and its partially because my partner, whom is in recovery lied about smoking weed, probably doing other things, where he’s been and why hes had to miss house meetings. Everytime this has ever occ...

someone I watch on YouTube  lost there mom today and the feeling was so palpable just watching him bc he literally has just found out.  Gives me friggin flash backs when i see someone else going through it. before that I was listening to music just chilling and Ed Sheerans new song came on, Visit...

It's so common for us as people to take for granted of where we live. No matter where we are, our circumstance, we almost live in the world where we barely know half of the places near us. 7 billion people in the world, millions upon millions of corners, millions of memories behind these corners....

I write because it calms my anxiety, so today is one of those days that mind plays tricks on me, makes me think in 10 things at once that by the moment i realize that i am doing it i have already been consumed by the darkness these thoughts bring, i think about problems that…

There are days when you just feel nothing. Your mind is blank and you enter a meditating-like state. But your body constantly moves. Your feet continuously walk without a destination. You end up at random places and wonder why? Why have I come here? These random places sometimes help you be at pe...