#sadness

I am so afraid of being hurt that I do not allow myself to trust anything that anyone says. Its a very difficult way of life if i'm honest. I can never allow myself to be close to anyone because they will hurt me. You see,  I stopped believing that people are genuine a long…

I just need to empty out all the bullshit in my head. I’m going through some pretty severe depression and its partially because my partner, whom is in recovery lied about smoking weed, probably doing other things, where he’s been and why hes had to miss house meetings. Everytime this has ever occ...

someone I watch on YouTube  lost there mom today and the feeling was so palpable just watching him bc he literally has just found out.  Gives me friggin flash backs when i see someone else going through it. before that I was listening to music just chilling and Ed Sheerans new song came on, Visit...

It's so common for us as people to take for granted of where we live. No matter where we are, our circumstance, we almost live in the world where we barely know half of the places near us. 7 billion people in the world, millions upon millions of corners, millions of memories behind these corners....

I write because it calms my anxiety, so today is one of those days that mind plays tricks on me, makes me think in 10 things at once that by the moment i realize that i am doing it i have already been consumed by the darkness these thoughts bring, i think about problems that…

There are days when you just feel nothing. Your mind is blank and you enter a meditating-like state. But your body constantly moves. Your feet continuously walk without a destination. You end up at random places and wonder why? Why have I come here? These random places sometimes help you be at pe...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ABOUT TO BE BROKE WITH A BUSINESS I AM DISAPPOINTED TO BE RUNNING ALONE. - I need to calm this anger down. I need to tame the fear of- How can you literally love someone to the core of your being and hate them at the same time???HOW? How can you feel so complete…

I wonder if I could have tried harder to keep you. If I could have stayed with you and made it work. I thought it would be too hard. I hated telling people that I was already taken. So, I gave it all up. I let you go, and I thought it would make both…

I had a diary oh so long ago. I had pictures, entires, witty things all stored in it. People I followed, friends I made, lifelong connections. That’s all gone now. I can’t remember my information, so see ya later memories. I was probably YukiOnna over there. It was my thing for a while. I don’t&h...

Okay, yes, the cheater is totally wrong.  Cheating is a despicable, repulsive, selfish and deplorable act.  Especially if the cheater is in a relationship with someone he leads his to believe is serious, true and meant to be. What about the other person?  The “mistress” … the person who actively ...