Practicing gratitude
Day 14: I was dreaming again last night! My apple watch says I got 6 1/2 hrs of sleep.
#sleep
Should I take melatonin or just say “Fuck you Sleep”?
Because I hate it wearing off at like 3-5a... and then me feeling like a bleeding zombie for the day unless I chug coffee in large amounts... it sucks. I guess that I will have to take the good with the bad right? I mean, from 11p to 4a isn't bad... is it? I am…
And Queen Daenerys… lol…
These past few days, time throughout the day is going so damn fast. It seems like I just ate breakfast, now it's almost noon. o_O Today I am not doing much, maybe sleeping the aft away bc I had shitty sleep last night. I had two dreams... 1) was Bees and I were on this…
Musical dreams?
https://youtu.be/nLt60MUv7AU?list=RDMM No, I didn't wake up with this song, it was a Richard Marx song... but I am trying to wake up... I am not as sleepy as I was yesterday.... in fact I'm the opposites. I just had the worst sleep the night b4 and my body was trying to play catchup. I am…
Nightmares
Each night, we return to this spot. My bed. California king. No headboard. No decor. Just white. Cream. Soft and cool. Me and my boys. No Daddy. He works 7 days straight and then he’s off for 7 days. Second shift. Us eating dinner alone. Bath time. Teeth brushing. Story time. Me and my two…
Sleepy Sammy and weather that can’t make up it’s fecking mind…
It says mostly sunny but that is bullshit. It is very much a cloudy day... and yes, I am a sleepy Sammy. The 3rd phase of re-opening is on Friday -- this Friday, so Bees and Julz and I are going to Timmy's to celebrate. I really need some sleep. :( Sammy xoxo
Insomnia, Insomnia…
Oh how I hate thee... let me count the days... 1, 2, 3... Today makes 4 running on 6 hours of sleep. Well, not running, because I have a sprained ankle/foot. Maybe... Just maybe... The comfort of cats that just ran across my ankle in a burst of speed, will settle in around me and…
Feeling crappy
I’ve been feeling crappy physically lately and it’s making my anxiety worse. I cannot fall asleep and my doctor won’t prescribe anything to help me. I haven’t had a full nights sleep in almost 2 years. Now that I’m out of work, I don’t even fall asleep until 4-5am I’ve also been eating really bad...
Thoughts & updates
So I didn’t write for a few days. I wish I could claim I was busy. But I spend most of my day sleeping. I don’t fall asleep until 4am and I end up sleeping until 9am, I get up and eat so I can take my meds, then I go back to bed til…
I need to do some swishing with salt water soon…
After this, I reckon, I will swish then, go to bed. I have nothing to do right now... so.. yeah. As soon as I get my mitts on the card, I'm filling out eBay's checkout form. I have everything except for the card's details. My face is on fire bc of the bad tooth... so…