#hurt

I think I'm still carrying the hurt from everything we went through last year. Eventually the hurt manifested in anger, irritation, the confusion of realising that all the things that I'm mad about today and yesterday are all symbolic of the same old issue that was never properly resolved. I wond...

Today I realized that God could possibly be punishing me for that abortion I had, I'm mad with myself bc I feel alone as I did when I got it. At the time I just started my new job and got pregnant carelessly and was scared. I truly didn't get a chance to be happy…

Tonight, has been radio silent.  For the first time, there have been no calls or text from you. This "new normal" will take some time to get used to. But I can't help but to wonder. I can't help but to still care, somehow. After all the things you've done to me, I still love…

Once again I find myself up at night, questioning my actions, questioning your actions, and wondering if we are going to make it. My gut tells me we are, but you ability to end things at the drop of a pin make me question. Although relationships are so much more complex, I truly believe it…

I’ve been feeling crappy physically lately and it’s making my anxiety worse. I cannot fall asleep and my doctor won’t prescribe anything to help me. I haven’t had a full nights sleep in almost 2 years. Now that I’m out of work, I don’t even fall asleep until 4-5am I’ve also been eating really bad...

I thought I knew who I was.  I thought I was strong.  I thought I was stable. I thought I was loved, cherished, and valued.  I wasn’t. I was misled into believing that I was enough.  I was blissfully unaware that my devotion was a charade.  A scam.  A mockery. I thought I knew who…

Can you be with someone if you don't trust them? I am currently in a relationship with someone who has lied to me in the past, just because they "didn't wanna hurt me". Lying kills a relationship in my opinion, but yet here I am still with him. I love him I do but when…

I'm at this place that I don't understand. I mean, my rational mind understands it. I'm a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. I do feelings and thoughts for a living. I know all about the grieving process and processing loss and using coping skills. I know how to say things to make everyone feel bet...

I loved you when you first kissed me, in a hospital 80 miles away. You rubbed the space between my fingers, In my mind you would stay. I loved you, patrick, when our bodies connected in a halfway house 60 miles away you touched my body and my spirit In the depths of my soul…

Thanksgiving without her was different. I want to forgive her for what she's done but i cant get over that she's done this before and she will again. I want to do whats right for my kids, i think they are taking it well (on the outside) however on the inside i know they are…